It has been ages since i last blogged and this blog is like dead already and i doubt anyone will visit. I don't know why but i have an urge to blog today. Maybe i am trying to find a place to channel my unhappiness. Sometimes there are things that I feel that i can't say or rather don't know how to say. People are weird sometimes or maybe it's part of a characteristic of human beings. There are times when only they need you, then they will come to you. Sad. The feeling of it is disappointing. Like trying to help this and that. Come on man, seriously do I take myself as a superhero. Haha. What a joke. Sometimes i can't even save myself, but it seems so easy to save others. Maybe it's like that you can use the same reason to help others and it works for them. But when you try to use the same method on yourself, it just fails. Oh wells. I think i need to spend more time people watching, then i will know what they are thinking. Maybe i need to spend more time with people and really get to know them. It's really scary when i thought we are quite good friends and only then disappointment comes when somethings happen. I can't control what you are thinking right. Sometimes i just feel as though i am a substitute in our friendship. Disappointing.
I have no idea when did all these thoughts come. I have no idea when did all these thoughts build up. Seriously. I. Don't. Know.
Was listening to How do you love someone by Ashley Tisdale on my way to school. I don't know why but i feel so sad when i hear that song. Oh man. The song is like kind of emotional. Like when i hear i can totally feel it. haha. Maybe it's cos of my sadness toady? LOL.
Toodles.
