In a tension of opposites, love always wins.

looking at things from another perspective

2010-05-18T20:54:00.001+08:00

有一天，蟑螂弟弟到街上去走走…碰到了好久不见的朋友。朋友一见到他，就高喊‘害虫！哈哈哈！’蟑螂听到了非常伤心，低着头拖着脚步回家去。蟑螂爸爸看到了就问他，‘你怎么了？’。蟑螂弟弟说，我到外面去，大家都叫我害虫！’. 正好当他说完时，蟑螂哥哥刚从街上回来，满脸带着笑容。蟑螂爸爸问到‘怎么那么开心啊？’蟑螂哥哥说，‘街上的人都很友善，看到我不停的向我打招呼，一直向我呼喊，嗨…….虫！’。有时我们在人生中要懂得怎么把事情往另一个方面去看。就像那酸溜溜的柠檬，加点茶它不是变成一杯人们都喜爱的柠檬茶吗？

thanks ws for sharing this with me. (: interesting yeah.

Priorities all wrong

2010-05-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really feel like giving up, I start to not know where I am heading to, I feel so lost. There are so many things to do but so little time. :( Whatever shit that i am in now. I don't know how to go on. I think it was wrong of me from the start to take on so many roles. I feel like i am going to collapse anytime from now. There is much much more confusions, but i don't know how to pen it down.

It's so sad when i feel like crying, but there's no tears rolling down.

2010-05-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

Went to support ys today for his finals in volleyball A div. It's my first time watching him play an actual match, so cool la. I can totally feel the excitement during the whole match. Hahas. Although they lost to hci, but they played well. Good job man! (: I shall not say what happened after that. A little disappointment here and there . But oh wells, never mind. At this time when I am blogging, 我看开了. So I am not feeling so sad now.

Good la you! Go enjoy buffet and forget bout me kays! Tsk! Anyway, after the match i heard a girl saying "Yunsheng played very well today" Coolios man! You are popular eh. hahas. (:

loveyou

2010-05-10T16:20:00.002+08:00

It has been ages since i last blogged and this blog is like dead already and i doubt anyone will visit. I don't know why but i have an urge to blog today. Maybe i am trying to find a place to channel my unhappiness. Sometimes there are things that I feel that i can't say or rather don't know how to say. People are weird sometimes or maybe it's part of a characteristic of human beings. There are times when only they need you, then they will come to you. Sad. The feeling of it is disappointing. Like trying to help this and that. Come on man, seriously do I take myself as a superhero. Haha. What a joke. Sometimes i can't even save myself, but it seems so easy to save others. Maybe it's like that you can use the same reason to help others and it works for them. But when you try to use the same method on yourself, it just fails. Oh wells. I think i need to spend more time people watching, then i will know what they are thinking. Maybe i need to spend more time with people and really get to know them. It's really scary when i thought we are quite good friends and only then disappointment comes when somethings happen. I can't control what you are thinking right. Sometimes i just feel as though i am a substitute in our friendship. Disappointing.

I have no idea when did all these thoughts come. I have no idea when did all these thoughts build up. Seriously. I. Don't. Know.

Was listening to How do you love someone by Ashley Tisdale on my way to school. I don't know why but i feel so sad when i hear that song. Oh man. The song is like kind of emotional. Like when i hear i can totally feel it. haha. Maybe it's cos of my sadness toady? LOL.

Toodles.

2009-11-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

Went to mahaprajna this morning for graduation ceremony. This year i didn't go back for lessons cos i was pretty busy. but i really do miss those times there. I don't know, but when i go back there last week and this week, although i have not seen my friends there for about a year, but when i go back to that familiar place, i felt safe, calmness and peace and it just feels right there. Sometimes i really do enjoy the peacefulness and calmness in mahaprajna. after that went to orchard lido to meet mich, jo and mcking for group proj. did some work and went ion muji. hahs.

sometimes i feel as though i've lost myself, sometimes i want my old self back, but i can't find it. i don't like it. seriously. sometimes i don't even know how should i act. be normal, be natural how? oh well. think I'm thinking toooo much and i think I'm being sensitive. yeah maybe. hahs.

alright. after ranting i shall go do homework. i gotta rush my chlt now. Jiayou!

i miss you. how i wish you were here right now. i love you. <3.

Hectic Life

2009-11-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

Recently life has been really hectic and busy. Life has been stressful, i am flooded with assignments and projects. I think time management is really important, i think i gotta work on this. My time management SUCKS. I feel so not organised, i feel like everything is so packed, so not well planned, my life, i got to plan it myself, get it organised. I seriously need an organised schedule and a plan of what am i gonna do. I can't function well now. Hahs. make me sound like i am some robot or something. Oh well~

Priorities, priorities. What's my priorities. In life, there are many things that we got to do, the most important thing is to know what's our priorities, if we don't get our priorities right, we wont be efficient in what we do. Well, I know it's really important to have priorities, but do you really know what you want in life, do you really know what are your priorities?

"Don't tell me your problems, tell me your solutions." quoted from ys which was from zw. hahs. quite true huh. We always complain and complain, rant and rant. Complaining about our problems and stuff, but we always didn't think about what should we do instead. What's the point of complaining when you are not thinking of any solutions to solve the problems. Action speaks louder than words. Seriously. BUT it's easier to be said than done. HAHS. contradicting? I think afterall, it's up to us to see what we want, how we want to solve it or just leave it there as if things will work out themselves.

SO, leowyihang what are you still waiting for. Wake up man. start to plan and organise your life, or else you are just gonna be good at nothing. Manage your own time, think of ways that you can get things done and overcome this. You need time for sjab, hi club, piano, projects, individual assignments, family time, own personal time etc etc. everyone have the same 24hrs, if others can do it why can't you? Come on man, buck up. JIAYOU!!

i shall leave it here today...

i am sorry i dont have much time for you nowadays. you are going camp soon, going china soon. i will miss you. i will find time to meet you alright. take care. iloveyou. <3

2009-11-19T11:52:00.003+08:00

currently in school doing project. sigh. there's like so many projects? hahs. oh well. time flies man. sians. tats all. nothing much today. hahs. just bored. well well. till then~

takecareokays.getwellsoon.notfeelingwellshouldseeadoctor.loveyou<3

2009-11-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

yoohoo. it's me blogging. hehe. asssignments and projects are coming again. it's like so so many things to do. and currently i am doing my materials for the IP. hahs. yeah. so there's nothing much these few days. things are still the same. i am still going through the same routine everyday. school, work, sleep. school, work, sleep. sometimes i wonder why people also work like a robot. oh, maybe it's just me? well well. hahs. it's okay. high S likes routine, right. LOL! so spent so much time in the library today, searching high and low for dpl library search. T.T

going library tmr again to do chlt and tetl. yeah. busy and hectic life. my schedule is so so packed. i need to breathe!! apparently my life is almost fully packed from monday to friday. sad. :(

i shall go and sleep soon. goodnight ppl.

quite shocking, oh well life's unpredictable, sometimes ppl just dont understand _____. sigh.saddening though.

iloveyouandimissyouterribly. :(

finally updated! (:

2009-11-13T14:40:00.005+08:00

It's my 60th post. hahs. so so so long since i last posted. oh well. internet at home sucks, always give me problems. but it's okay. hmm. so many things have happened recently. grandma is staying with me already. the house at siang kwang ave is officially sold, all my childhood memories there with my cousins. hahs. it's okay, i have pictures. (:

Yesterday

i was on the bus home after HI club. i was on 261, there was this blind man, he was singing so so loudly on the bus, everyone is finding him weird, crazy,scary. I wont deny that i do felt a little afraid of him. but he said some words that made me felt helpless, felt sad. he sang so much, sang so loud so as to gain people's words of encouragement. i dont know what to say, how to help. so he was abt to get off the bus, but he does not know which stop, so i told him then he got down at the same stop as me. No one approached to help him. he just crossed the road, right in the middle of a cross junction, everyone was staring at him, shocked, worried, but no one helped him. i was worried so i ran across the road to help him. but after that i felt scared, i dont know why, but i know i cant back out already since i started helping him, so i walked him to the hawker centre and ordered food and drinks. sigh. oh well.

i shall upload some pictures for these few days.

ys and i

dumbdumb. (:

tata. thats me caught eating choco ice cream. hohoho

thats all. hahs.

2009-10-11T00:05:00.002+08:00

Went grandma hse this mornin to help out in the garage sale. hahs. loads of antiques there. i shall post photos next time since i dont have much time now. gotta continue to pack my bag for china trip. heh. so had lunch at grandma hse then ard 4 plus yk and yp wanna go play pool. hahs. but i am not really a fan of playing pool so asked them to watch movie. heh. and they agreed. hehs. so it's like another cousin outing. so went amk hub with yk and yp to watch 500 days of summer. uhm. that movie is alright i think, but i take kinda long to get it. and the 2 of them are like gonna faint cos of the questions i ask. hahs. oh well, i think i am just slow la at getting the story all these. LOL! i am going to malaysia tmr morning, and will be boarding plane from KL airport with the rest of my relatives, going CHINA for 5 days i think. hahs. it's been ages since i last board plane. hope i will have fun and enjoy the last week of my holidays. (: heh.
joey also will be going HONGKONG i think. hope she'll have fun too and BON VOYAGE! hahs.
i do hope sch starts soon. get to see my friends and classmates. oh well. hahs.

i will miss you!!!! take care yah! loveyou <3

2009-10-07T16:36:00.007+08:00

it has been super long since i last posted. and i think my blog is like so dead. So many things has happened. i'm still having holidays now. oh well and went for attachment and 2 camps in my hols. So attachment was fine and fun knowing all the kids etc. hahs. went to TCP camp followed by HI! Club camp. Both camps were GREAT! enjoyed myself totally in TCP camp, made new friends and learnt alot of stuff and had a great time! hahs. team HERCULES! woohoos. lol.
so after that was HI! Club camp from 1st Oct to 3rd Oct. had a fun time there with my group members and the ji ko pa grp. it was really funny. First time played multi-player ji ko pa and it was hilarious. kept laughing and laughing and laughing. saw the other side of MEYI in this camp. HAHS! oh well. enjoyable! picture speaks a thousand words~

the ti ko pa grp. missing a few members. hahs.

Meyi

Yvette

Di Sheng

Aishan

YiLin

Latifa
and together this forms GO GREEN! with our 2 GLS Sean and Sherrie. (:

6 Oct is a day for me to remember. hahs. a lesson learnt for us. somehow it's also a good thing that everything is revealed. perhaps a little relieved. i know i'm wrong, i know my mistake already. trust me. i've learnt. i made a promise and i will keep that promise. not only i but we. trust us. it will not happen again.

thank you for always standing by me, never giving up on me. you gave me the strength to carry on this journey. thank you.
i love you.

2009-09-13T19:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was passing out parade. So i'm now an officer. hahs. well, i dont think it's easy being an officer though. Jiayou ba! lol. hmm. yesterday i felt so proud of myself. lol. i believe everyone do. hahs. took quite some photos but photos are mainly use other's cameras or phone take de. hahs. Congrats to everyone! i shall post photos soon. prolly after attachment will have more time. (: it's time to go do my assignments, make it neater and organised, mentor is going to childcare tmr. hahs. i shall relax a little, then i wont feel so stressed. hahs. (: tata.

i am starting to miss those days, those times. hahs.

iloveyou.

2009-09-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

so many things have happened in the past few days, attachment started and many many other things. hahs. but as kinda busy and dont really have time to post pics etc. attachments are tiring. hahs. didnt expect it to be that tough at times, but it's really a pleasure to see children greeting you and giving you their drawings etc. well, it's sweet la. hahs. and i enjoy it. (:

next time then post pictures that i had taken at marina barrage all these. hahs. yups. i passed otc!!!! lol. goodnight ppl. gonna go to grandma house and stay over.

iloveyou. <3

2009-08-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

Friends for life. Will there be such thing? hahs. sometimes i feel that such things dont have to be emphasized on. it's like the more someone say and emphasize on it, the more fake i find it. hahs. weird huh. yes. it's really weird. Promises. it seems that sometimes promises are meant to be broken. right? tsk tsk. what's wrong? now i understand the feeling of coming into your life and then walking out of it. only when feeling lonely then will think of contacting someone. it seems that i have quite a lot of things to say. but now i dont know where to start. it's getting weirder and weirder, slowly slowly drifting apart and soon lost and gone. tada. that's when u truly walk out of someone's life. no more connection. hahs. i dont even understand what am i talking here, do you? CRAP.
perhaps, perhaps, i should learn to feel happy when i'm alone. what's so bad about being alone right. being alone will make me think about things. yeah. sometimes it's good to spend time alone.

iloveyou. <3

2009-08-23T19:04:00.003+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday YS!

Early morning woke up and met zhiwei, warren, yuliang, justin, glenn at buangkok mrt. hohoho. to proceed on our surprise for ys. (: lol. so we walked to his house and i collaborated with his brother so he also woke up early to open door for us. (thanks!) hahs. hehes. so reached his place at ard 7.15am. lol. and we discussed and prepared the cake. zw bought the party thing that can make such a LOUD noise when u blow. hahs. so they each took one and i was holding on the cake and preparing to light the candle. so they went into his room and 1 2 3 BLOWWWWWW~ my god. that was really loud and ys got the shock of his life. hahs. he got a shock and woke up and they started singing "Happy Birthday", so i went in with the cake. lol. (: hahs. so sad luh. didnt managed to take photo or video of how he got shocked and woke up T.T but nvm it was a pleasant surprise. and it's really damn hilarious, everything. hahas. (: yeah. so they gave him presents and stuff. hahs. think he should be quite happy lah. hahs. he totally didnt expect it. lol. sweet. it's been super long since i last saw zw they all. hahs. actually he is always very guai lan la but okay la quite nice of them to include me today. hahs. (: yeah. so wanted to have breakfast together, but zw they all going for soccer, so end up only warren, ys and i went for breakfast. and i brought along PEE to study lah. -.- cos pei-ed them go gym and i studied at mac. lol.

met mama in the afternoon cos she was ard rivervale perming hair. hahas. so she came to compasspoint to meet ys and i and we had lunched and dessert together. hahs. and we went cold storage to buy groceries together. hahs. sweet. (: lol. and ys get to carry all the basket filled with stuff. hehes. and aft tat mama drove ys to hougang to cut his hair and home sweet home for us.

afterall, it's really a pleasant surprise for him, and seeing him happy, makes my day! hahs. (:

may all your wishes come true! iloveyou! <3

EXAMS!

2009-08-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

All the theories are making me crazy. Ugh. Oh Well.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY.STUDY.

Jia you! hahs.

Sweet memories.

2009-08-11T12:52:00.008+08:00

yesterday went dinner with june. (: hahs. met her after she work and went to eat pizza. lol. talked about many many stuff. yeah. it was a great day. lol. well i dont feel like blogging so much lately, getting lazy. but well i feel like posting pictures which i found on my comp. those pics were long long time ago. my secondary sch days and beautiful memories. hahs. enjoy! (:

sec 3 i went to chiang mai for cip + exchange program with zx and this lovely grp of ppl

my fantastic class - 2e3'06 (: hahs.

wei ling's 16th birthday. hahs. (:

sjab year 4s. with a few missing ppl. lol.

sjab nursings. <3

FAC nursing team 2007

sjab year 4s + leroy + mr gavin lee. (:

sjab. firedrill practice. hahs.

sec3 exchange program at shenyang. their cable car is so scary. wl and i are practically laughing from the top of the mountain all the way to ground so that we will not feel so scared. hahas. (:

jiwei. me. wei ling.

zixin and i at the airport. (:

shu fen and i. hahs.

my bunk mates in shenyang. (:

kite flying. (:

Love. Love. Love. <3

well. people may walk in and out of your life, but the memories will forever stay. (:

"Friends are the most important part of your life. Treasure the tears, treasure the laughter, but most importantly, treasure the memories."

Dave Brenner

i hereby wanna thank all my friends who once walked into my life, some may have proceeded on and some are still here by my side. but i will always treasure those beautiful moments that we had spent together. (: love all of you.

iloveyoutoo. <3

2009-08-01T23:18:00.002+08:00

went out with ys today. (: hehes. watched harry potter and the half-blood prince. i love the show. and i was so so sad that i cried when dumbledore died. especially when harry potter told snape that 'he trusted you'. i just felt so sad. lol. cos like can relate to real life like sometimes when you really trusted someone, one day you realised that it was all fake. one day they just disappoint you, that feeling. really sucks. terrible. hahs. yah. so aft movie went to eat japanese meal. hmm. the food is quite nice. hahs. yups. so aft that nothing much alr. yeah. kinda bored. getting tired recently, exams are coming soon. gotta prepare and stuff. jiayou ba. (: goodnight ppl. yeah.

many things are happening. the world aint all sunshine and rainbows. (: believe in yourself.

iloveyou.

2009-07-28T23:27:00.003+08:00

nothing much today. was feeling bored so decided to blog a little. but there's nothing much to blog about. lol. i shall blog about MANGO. since jo wants me to do so huh. MANGO actually lied to me that they had outing that day. but the truth is, they didnt even had an outing. oh so sad right. omg. this is so crap la. idk what am i talking here.

we do not have to be bothered by what people say or comment about us yah. (: just be yourself. some people just tend to think toooooooooooo much. disgusting. yikes. hahs.

boring. sigh. i shall go sleep. goodnight.

imissyou and iloveyou <3

Last day of OTC

2009-07-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

Today was the last day of OTC. well, after 4 days 3 nights camp and after 3 theory course day. i've learnt quite a lot of stuff. yes. i did. some things that i've learnt are probably kinda difficult to describe but i just know it's there as i can feel it. feel the change, feel the impact. lol. apart from learning new values and getting to know and understand my beliefs, i made new friends. some of them are kinda nice ppl that will give you advices and help you along the way. i was glad that i went for otc and meeting new ppl and get to un-learn and re-learn stuff. hahas. i would like to thank those who helped me along the way. Tango was such a lovable group. i still remember during camp days, our performance, i would say is the most special one - only group that had no music for dance. hahas. was worried before the performance that we would screw up, but well~ we did a great job with those remix there. lol. (: I would like to thank each and everyone in Tango, it's because of you all that made me perservered and strive on. those encouragements that you all had given me and those push and pull that cheered me on. (: hahs. and special thanks to our 2 beloved group mentors - sir qing jun and mdm pei jun. never losing faith in anyone of us and always encouraging us and giving us advices and guiding us through the course. thanks loads! (: i believe this journey never ends, and it's just the start for us. so everyone let's strive on for whatever we do, not just in sj but in everything we do!

Lead with Honour.

so had exam today, it was quite alright. (: samuel was not feeling well and he had high fever. so he went home first. Take care! Get well soon! hahas. Don't worry okays, you will be alright one. (:

tmr is presentation for PROP!! omg. single parent. lol. well~ may everything go well. jia you! hahahs. shall go do the script. Goodnight!

iloveyou. <3

2009-07-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

i wanna be there for you and i will try my best to.
no matter what happens, i will always believe in you.
holding you up, even if everyone puts you down. alright.
so you got to believe in yourself too.
don't let those words get you down.
okays, i believe you can boy. jia you!
i will always be there for you. love~

STRESS!

2009-07-24T22:42:00.002+08:00

Argh. STRESS is the only word that is in my mind now. i am like so worried about the poster lah. gar. tmr need study for sj theory exam and at night have something on and i can also do some poster and sunday committed to OTC. and monday having PROP. then tues submission of poster. god. there is like not enough time. i am worrying worrying worrying. shit it. sometimes i am like angry with myself la. dumb. i have learnt not to procrastinate. i have learnt to spend my time wisely. i have learnt about time management. yes yes yes. i have learnt. argh. i shall go and continue now. just so frustrated that i have to rant rant rant. sigh. what's the point of complaining now, doesnt solve anythin friggin thing. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. screams*
okays. better? lol. start work!

I CAN DO IT! JIA YOU!

sometimes you just really need that push, and more of self-motivation.
cos there won't always be someone there for you.
sometimes, you really need to just be there for yourself.

thankyouforyourhelpandadvices. iloveyou. <3

2009-07-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

I am a happy girl today cos i did 2 good deeds. (: 1) this morning on the bus michele and i gave up 2 seats to an old couple. and they thanked us and smiled. (: 2) when going home i alighted from the bus and saw a blind lady also alighting so helped her and walked her to her block then walk home. She was kinda young and she was grateful and thanked me, praising me and said 'may God bless you~' sweet. hahs. yup so was a HAPPY girl today. yups. okays. gotta sleep and talk to my darl~ lol.

Project worksssssss- argh! Just one word - STRESS! lol

goodnight. hahas.

loves~ <3

2009-07-22T14:13:00.003+08:00

i am in school library doing project. but i am feeling so bored! gar. sigh. well well. i am recovering but still having flu and cough. sigh sigh. So i didnt go OTC on sunday cos was still having fever, but thanks uh for ppl who sent me notes and the exam tips. (: (Hi im Michele, thanks for the well wishes ^^V) this is M cutting in when i type halfway. lol

anyway, yesterday went piano lesson and when i bus-ed home i was kinda happy. just because of a smile. hahs. i smiled at the bus driver when boarding cos he smiled at me. hahs. so i alighted at my house bus stop and when i looked back the bus driver waved and say bye to me. felt so happy at this small act of his. i dont know why, but it made me happy and glad. i think sometimes in life, there are many small little things that can actually make our day. it depends on how you look at it, how you view it. yups/ (: hahas.

*michele is leaning on me now and joey peeping over my shoulders and like a monkey yakking away. (Tan. M, 2009) omg. this is so APA. lol. okays. tata for now. (:
bye people!!

M.Y.J

iloveyou. <3

I AM SICK!

2009-07-17T20:36:00.002+08:00

well, i am sick. sigh. didnt go to school today, and was given 3 days mc, so if i have not recovered on Sunday, not going OTC. I am down with fever, cough, flu. my temperature is like so high now 38.9 degrees celsius. i dont like having fever, it make my head hurts like hell. argh. irritating. yah. no appetite as well, dont feel like eating anything, but i got to cos of the medicine. so mum cooked porridge - plain white porridge. no choice but to eat a little. and parents went for some performance at esplanade and i cant go!! saddd. well. hope i'll get well soon like seriously, dont wanna go ttsh.

Michele get well soon!

imissyou. iwantyoubymyside. i love you. <3

West Coast Park

2009-07-10T23:45:00.006+08:00

First of all,
Happy 17th Birthday Michele!!!
hahas. hope you enjoyed today with US! (:

Today's post shall have pictures to brighten up my wordy and down down blog. hahs. (: went west coast park today with ms tan hui min and T01 and T02 i think. so reached there and split into groups, so walked around with michele, joey and mcking. took super loads of photos. hahas. Pictures speak a thousand words.

i like this long long thing.

michele and joey

spider web is so fun.

this "tunnel" is so nice lah. though we are so dark but still nice. (:

me. (:

M for Michele. (: hahas. and after taking this photo my poor slippers broke.

michele is like a happy child. hahas. (:

i am higher than joey.

michele is like the highest, and we talked like that. hahas

twist. and michele asked me who is the 'blob' behind, without knowing it's herself. -.- hahs.

joey the wax figure with me.

mcking on this thing which is damn fun. (:

joey's turn.

my turn.

michele's turn.
all of us had so much fun playing this over and over again.

and the best. michele fell and she's lying on the sand. hahs. we laughed like hell. she cant get down so jumped and fell. hahs. but nice position (:

this is only like part of it. still have second half of the day, but i think it'll take damn long. shall do it next time. (: michele's birthday celebration will be up soon as well. hahs. good night.

i love you. <3

2009-07-06T09:17:00.004+08:00

030709

i was in malaysia that day. i felt so bad that i wanna blog but i cant get internet, so i typed it in my phone which is 6 pages long. hahs.

Life is unpredictable. Last friday she was still talking to me, and now she passed away due to heart attack. It's really shocking. Although she is just a nanny who took care of my newborn niece, but she is very friendly and always talked to me and shared her experiences of looking after infants, and she is now no longer around. it's just kind of shocking when i heard the news. i think life is like that, you really dont know what is going to happen the next day. We should live life to the fullest, like there is no tomorrow. lol. Cherish every single one around us. Let them know that they are important in our lives. Life is like that. From birth to death, it is a cycle that just repeats itself.
I also believe that if you treat someone badly, next time someone will do the same to you too. I miss my Granny all of a sudden, although she had already passed away for 4 years. Used to go back to malaysia often to visit her. Now she's no longer there, sometimes when i saw her stuff, it will just remind me of her. Granny is a nice lady, she taught me a lot of nice phrases about life which are very meaningful. (: i think i hate to have someone close to me leaving me, but i know this is life. It's like that, when it's time, you'll die. It's part and parcel of life. Yes, i got it.

i was feeling down that night, hahs. but after thinking and thinking and thinking, i was fine. lol. i think i start to think a lot as i grow older, hahs.

YESTERDAY

went OTC, hahs. it's the same, lessons - lunch - lessons - home. hahas. was tired yesterday, during lectures i am struggling to be awake, and samuel was not feeling well so didnt go = no one to entertain me. hahs. (: but after lunch wei qi sat beside alr so we talked and planned TANGO Outing!! hahas. yay! so next sunday no OTC so we will be having TANGO Outing at East Coast Park. hahs. wet weather program is to go Samuel's House. hahs. Think everyone might go, hopefully everyone goes including sir qj and mdm pj. (:
the fun thing about yesterday is that it started raining after training so charmaine, george and i were like running from HQ to mrt. charmaine and i ran and laughed at the same time, so we got damn tired and started walking in the heavy rain. hahs. looks dumb, i know. but it had been so so long since i last run and walked in such heavy rain. of course i am drenched. hahs. but thanks to the 2 guys from otc that we met halfway, they sheltered us to the mrt station. hahas. (: well. that's abt it. hahs. going to leave house soon. meeting ys for lunch and he'll send me to np. grins. (:

oh and today is youth day. Happy Youth Day! but sad, i still have school. oh well~

6 more days to go... i love you <3

2009-07-01T23:01:00.002+08:00

sometimes i will feel lonely, sometimes i will feel neglected, sometimes i will feel that i do not belong, sometimes sometimes... it's just like that...

tata.

2009-06-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

omg. i wanted to blog about malaysia. but it seems that i have no time. and seriously, i am feeling stress. omg. though i know it's my fault for doing work so late. sigh sigh. i really need to change this. procrastinating is damn bad and i think it kills. argh. nvm. i will get back to do work now. cos tmr i have otc course so no time to do. no choice, blog some other time. take care people. bye

stress stress stress stress stress stress stress.. zzz. sigh.
iloveyou. <3

200609

2009-06-20T23:28:00.007+08:00

hahas. went to watch movie today with ys. Monster VS.Aliens in 3D. Coooooooooooooooool!! 3D is kind of cool. lol. every time some things will like suddenly pop out in front of me. and i just feel like grabbing it. and sometimes it will suddenly shock both of us. hahs. so funny. laughed a lot in the cinema. and we are surrounded by kids, so i feel like a kid too. hahs. so after watching movie we went to habourfront centre and ate at Ramenten. yup. ate the spicy ramen and i started sniffing away. lol. but it's not bad la. (: we went toys 'r' us. hahas. spent so much time inside la. playing with the toys and looking here looking there. haha. so many kids went with their parents. lol. and i felt so dumb in there doing all the stupid things but it's fun. (: hahas. Some photos to share.

us.

twist.

bird face la. look so guai lan. hahas.

so at toys 'r' us i saw new mickey and minnie stuff so i started to spend money turning capsules. hahas. and these are what i got.

2 blue ones, 2 circle ones, and 1 yellow one. so ys took 2 and i took 3. lol.

i like this water colour effect. lol.

dumb dumb.

what's with tat face la. lol. (:

i like this effect. haha. (:

hmm. that's all for now. gonna go sleep soon. tmr need to help out for singma competition. hahs. take care people. (:

so sweet of you today uh. (: i love you. <3

2009-06-17T15:50:00.003+08:00

sometimes i don't understand why people's attitude change so fast. sometimes i don't know if i am still being who i am. sometimes i seem to have lost myself. i think a lot when i am alone, when i didn't receive a reply, when i am worried and stress. that's just me, idk how can i change. i don't like it, seriously. but there are times when i really don't understand what's the point of being so nice. things change, people change, the world is changing. everything change. or is it the biggest thing that change is me? idk what am i talking abt here. it's just that i put everything that i am thinking about now,everything going thru my mind together.
sometimes that motivation is just gone. the feeling once so strong also gone. these are times when i feel like i am falling once again. falling back down, need to start to climb up all the way again. the process is not easy. seriously. sometimes, i just wanna give up, i know this is bad, really bad. that's why i am still holding on. i don't wanna make a wrong decision, i don't wanna regret. yes. i can't. is it when i start to open up, start to trust, i get thrown down again. why is it always happening. it's like a cycle, repeating itself, how can i stop?

Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.

i am still waiting, waiting, waiting. till then, iloveyou.

OTC Camp

2009-06-16T23:09:00.005+08:00

I am finally back from OTC! actually is yesterday but just too tired to blog. hahas. (:

tired but fun and challenging. inspiring. love OTC'09. love Tango!! (:

Day 1

booked in at 4.45 so we fall in and the usual stuff was done. quite some time ago since i was like a cadet again. hahas. falling in and every thing.(: then had lecture conducted by sir william lesson one - what's your potential? hahas. he talked about our timing for 2.4 km run, so we were thinking there must be running the next morning. then the next slide showed, so will go for a run NOW. omg, that time was around 5 plus and i didnt eat lunch that day la. so reluctantly i went. all of us ran, ran 1st round my timing improved as compared to usual. glad. (: then still need run 2nd round. he said 2nd round is the time when more ppl give up cos everyone is tired alr. true. i did give up a little, cos was running alone, no motivation, only motivation by myself. hahas. and some others who run past and just said jia you and all the way. hahas. then had dinner. and had triage, kind of chaotic. hmm, maybe not very well done thats what i think. cynthia and i transported a girl down with 2 other guys as well from the 3rd floor. tiring. hahas. slept around 1 plus. and reporting time for next day 4.45 am.

Day 2
Morning run from greenview sec all the way to pair ris park. running again. in this OTC camp, it's actually very physical but what they focused on is mental. they kept emphasizing that it's all in the mind! quite true. many times when u think that u want to give up, u will really give up soon. and during the run i am really sleepy. hahas. and after that i think we had ultimate challenge. it was really challenging. groups of five. so my group have wei qi, jasmine, qian cheng and samuel. haha. it'll take super long for me to say everything so a shorter version one.

we had to hold there in pumping position/crunches position until it is our team's turn. so we had to climb that rope thing, it's my first time la. climbing that rope with assist from others. then weiqi was the lightest so we got her to lie on stretcher den like it's like toc, climbing on benches to get her through obstacle. then did 100 pumpings shared with grp so 20 each. aft that pull up need do 30 each grp. lol. do we did it too with assist from others. it's all about strategy and helping each other i suppose. then had shuttle run or something. then it's the piggyback thing. lol. so last station is leopard crawl. then went back climb that rope again and ring the bell. lol. really tiring. seriously.

Day 3

had run again that 2.4km one but this time round is with group, so we were to strategise and set a target. so we run together as a group. this time it was better, cos in a group, we motivate each other, and cheered each other on, i didnt give up even when i am tired, i just kept running. the whole feeling is different. i think in life, we should always work as a team, then we can travel far, working alone might not have the same result. so our target was 17 mins. but we came back at 17 min 58 sec. but they said +1 is fine. and we were alright. then had to go 2nd round. complete within 25 mins, second round is not easy, seriously. my legs felt as if it's going to detatch from my body any time la. omg. hahas. we ran for 20 mins. quite alright i think. (: goooood job. hahs. sir qing jun doesnt like the goooooooood job cheer. lol
camp fire at night, our dance performance during practice seems not very good, and the sound system had problems and at night. but our grp does not need music. hahas. dance without music, so cool la. we sing by ourselves. we are so special.(: danced cannibal king combine 2 sentence of because of you and combine 1st short part of nobody. think it was funny. hahas. seriously. good job ppl. hahs. and i was the cadet course commander of the day. nice experience. (:

Day 4

3 am oh maybe earlier. gathered and prepared for road march. 16 km of road march from changi all the way back to greenview sec. my eyes can hardly open and see things. i almost fell alot of times. and cant walk sraigt, hahas. luckily ppl at the back kept pulling me back on track. hahas. thanks ah. (: but after that reached greenview at i dont know what time but the sun is out alr. lol. and had debrief, area cleaning and stuff.

Sir william is very inspiring. his lectures inspired me alot and i had a lot of self reflection. so i learnt a lot in the camp. (: had a lot of fun also. really tired but fun, motivating and inspiring. alright. that should be all. need to sleep. mum is going to scream soon. hahas. (:

good night ppl. take care!

disappointment. sometimes the more u anticipate something, the more disappointed you'll be. it's okay. i will be strong. (: i will still be happy. for now, i still can take it. sometimes i dont know what's the point of being so nice. sigh.

i love you.

OTC Camp

2009-06-11T21:04:00.002+08:00

tmr is the start of OTC Camp!!! booking in at 4.45pm and last day is on 15th. 4 days 3 nights camp, clashes with ZHSS Training Camp. Can't go back to help out. 4 days 3 nights i will be uncontactable as we have to surrender our phones.

people, don't miss me. (: hahas

today had dpl and wricomm test, should be fine, though i think dpl is a little bad, cause i forget the observational tools stuff. yeah, but well, finally can rest a little.
alright, gotta go pack my camp bag alr. hahas. (:

take care ppl. bye!

i will miss you. I love you. <3

2009-06-10T20:02:00.001+08:00

there's dpl and wricomm test tmr. but i cant concentrate, i'm easily distracted, and i just can't study. arghhh. this is frustrating. seriously, sucks.

2009-06-09T16:28:00.010+08:00

it has been so long since i last posted. currently i am at wricomm tutorial. hahas. this shows that i am not paying attention, this is bad. lol. (:

ji wei's birthday celebration on Friday

met wei ling earlier to get her present ready. hahas. so went to develop photos and stuff, then met ji wei at bishan J8, ate at pasta mania, then went to playground to pass her her cake, it was actually quite obvious that we were going to surprise her with a cake, yah, so she just played along. hahas. pictures speak a thousand words. (:

wei ling with our presents for jiwei

wl and i with the presents. (:

us again

we gave jw her cake here. hahas. and celebrated here.
jw say it's very warm there which is true, thus she rolled up her jeans. hahs.

i think this photo is so cool. taken through this peep hole for kids.

then we went to the monopoly place to take photos hahas.

three of us

three of us on the car (:

Went for Miss Azreen's Wedding on Sunday

yitong and i
we were camwhoring in the toilet. hahs. this is just a summary. -.-
i am lazy to post more photos. so will post them on fb. yep. (:

that's all for now, i spent like 2 days to post. okay i know it's retard. got to go now. hahas. joey is like rushing me. gotta study for DPL and Wricomm. bye!

i love you. <3

2009-06-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday JUNE!!!

hahas. today after sch went marina square to meet june and her friends. but basicallyi know most of her friends la. lol. yeap. so it's like so busy today, woke up early to do my essay and the present, then met michele to go sch and do project and had prop tutorial. yeah. so it's like busy busy. well, i believe june enjoyed her birtday with her friends. hahas. (: good good. made a ppt slide show for her. she's touched by it. so glad. lol. yea. so ate dinner at yoshinoya and it's like one of her friend went back first. and i suddenly remembered that i gotta bring banana and some stuff, so went to search. was damn worried, the time was 9.35, shops are startingto close. yeah so june and the rest of her friends went to search for a supermarket with me. hahs. thanks so much ppl. but waiyi and cher in left first with two other guys. so left yl, ah, vincent, june and i. they went to market place with me to get apples and banana. it's really thoughtful and sweet of them to run ard with me searching for stuff. (: thanks ppl, truly touched. hahs. esp when anhock was like missing suddenly, then he ran back with one banana that he bought from that thai shop or something. lol. hahas. okay. it was funny la. seriously. so aft tat finally got my stuff and trained home with them.
will post the photos some other time, eh. nope, no photos abt today, it's all with june. hahas. (: take care ppl. good night.

sometimes it's just so irritating and annoying that i wanna give up. i don't understand now. i can't read minds. sigh. oh well, whatever.

i miss you. see ya soon alright. take care. i love you. <3

2009-05-29T11:41:00.002+08:00

So long since i last posted, dated back on 22 may, i went back to zhss for prize giving ceremonyNo. i was awarded the outstanding leadership award. so i received a plague, it's quite nice. (: hahas. will post the pics some day when i am not lazy. hahas. ya.

Yesterday

Went to the Singapore Art Museum with quite a lot of people, hahs, nearing the whole T01, but some didnt come. Ate lunch at BK with them and before that met michele to go orchard buy stuff. hahas. I enjoyed the trip to museum, i am kind of mesmerised by all the art works, it's like the art works are of different themes and mediums. So the effect and results of it is also different. Gotta write the reflective essay. Oh man, i am still stuck with ethical issue essay and the reflective essay. This whole week is e learning, the good thing is don't have to travelso far to school, but we have quite a lot of writing to do, posting all these stuffs on mel. sigh, i would rather go sch then. lol.
So yesterday at the museum, some of the people going soka gotta leave first, so i stayed on with the rest, we went to like see more stuff at the museum but ended up talking more. hahas. so met up with the rest and soon left the museum. hahas. well, so we were discussing where to go next, cos dont feel like going back early. hahs. So in the end berlianna went back to sch for HI Club, then pei qi, Victoria, Ming Rui and I went cathay to watch Night at the Museum 2. Not bad, the movie is quite nice. hahas. aft watching went ps to have dinner at pizza hut, but pq went home first. talked a lot yesterday, hahas, it's good la, get to know my friends better. (: hehes.

Today
i finally finished wricomm, so i'm left with like 2 essays. ahhhh. june's birthday is coming. hahas. (: daddy is going china later, for his phd stuff. he is so studious. hahas. mummy everytime say i should learn from him. hahs. so gonna send him off at the airport lata. feel like going T3 to study and do work. hahas. nice place. needa teach tuition at 1, oh man. gonna lunch soon. tata. (:

All the best for your GP paper. Jia You! (: Take care. i love you. <3

2009-05-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hi all, today is tiring. I am down with flu and cough, the medicine that i took makes me drowsy. sigh. Hope i'll get well soon. haha. okays. so today, nothing much happen actually. just that it was my first time eating at np's alumni club house. hahas. hmm. the food there is quite delicious actually, just that the price will be more expensive. but once in awhile having a gathering there is fine. (: hahs. so tomorrow i am going for the final round of interview for the scholarships. well, i think i will just do my best. hahas, actually it doesnt really matters a lot. if i am given, i will go for it. if i didnt i am also fine. sometimes things that are not meant to be yours, will not be yours. (: but definetly, i will do my best in everything i do, thats my motto. hahas, okay. Tomorrow night needa teach tuition, or else i will be able to meet my clique. miss them. they are all in jc, busy busy as well. thats all for today. (:

Yt, Wl, Cyn, All the best for your exams ya. (: take care alright. hope to meet up soon, loads to catch up.

i miss you. see you soon alright. i love you. <3

2009-05-17T19:07:00.006+08:00

Friday
i don't have school, so stayed at home and do my work and slack around and REST. yes. REST. okay. so in the afternoon, cynthia came to my house. like so long didn't see her la so miss her. hahas. so yup, she came and we studied together, though different stuff, but we still can study together lor. hahas. okay. so after studying, she ate at my place then we went amk hub, walk walk. hahas. yeah. wanted to get wei ling to come as well, but she said she having test, so it's okay. JIA YOU! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR TEST, WEI LING. (: hahs. i miss my clique and my friends, hahs. meet up soon alright.

Played domino with my student. hahas. cos he finished his work already, so played with him.

Sunday
went old folks home today, with june and mama. hahs. took some pictures. lol. there's this auntie, she is so cute. she keeps laughing, cos we were playing ball games, so she managed to hit down the bottle and she'll start laughing, her laughter is very cute. She brightens up my day! and she brightens up JUNE'S day as well. hahas. had lunch at crystal jade with mama, papa and 2 of my aunt. hahs. yeah. then went home and had been using the comp till now. was doing my DPL project all the while. OMG. sometimes projects are irritating. hahas. but well, i gotta adapt right. hahas.

old folks home. we were playing ball games today. (:

june and i at my aunt house
some photos are with her. hahs. (:

eh. what is she doing?? lol.

i truly believe in this " Think about yourself first, before commenting on others."

recently i start to think again. lol. just some random thoughts la. but well, i seriously realised a lot of stuff. Perhaps i gotta open my eyes and SEE clearly, i need more time to know and understand a lot more stuff.
maybe i should learn to not trust that easily, yeah. maybe. those days. GONE and NOT coming back. lol.
naive? guillible? nah, i dont think so. hahas.

will you bring me to a faraway place? iloveyou. <3

2009-05-13T10:17:00.004+08:00

it has been quite some time since i blog. hahs. well, quite some stuff happen these few days. had aerobics camp on sat and sun, so managed to know more friends. basically we just played games, cos it's a bonding camp. (: well, so that's all. hahas.

yesterday, i lost my laptop. omg. i left it at canteen 2 during lunchtime and i totally forget about it when i left. only when Joey asked me to help her take her laptop then i realized i'm empty-handed. was super worried la. so michele accompanied me back to canteen 2 to find but dont have. i almost cried lur. so i went to report at the student services office. yup. so aft lecture i went to ask the office but no one found it. so my friends decided to go back to canteen 2 to find. then Dawn and Joey helped me asked the cleaner as they said cleaner should know. and *tada* it's at the drinks stall area, they kept it for me. D and J, they're so funny, they run even faster den i do to get back my laptop. (: hahs. thanks so much. i wanna thank everyone who helped me find my laptop and comforted me esp Michele, Joey, Dawn, Sylvia. haas. (: thanks. and i remebered to take good care of my laptop. hahs. won't leave it around anymore. yeah.

photos time. (:

Sylvia, Joey, Michele and I at the board games room playing Snorta. hahs.

Joey and Dawn. hahas.

Joey and Dawn again. but now dawn is smiling properly. (:

Joey and I. hahs.

and the last pic of the day...

yunsheng and i. (:

thats all, gonna prepare to go teach tuition and later meeting michele, joey and dawn for project work. and later have aerobics. hahs.

tata. take care peeps.
iloveyou. <3

2009-05-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

This morning went SOKA Kindergarten. I find this field trip enriching and fulfilling. hahs. i learnt quite a lot of stuff from this field trip. (: hahs. well, so aft the field trip, went to eat at pizza hut at tampines. then went back to np for mel workshop. yeah lor. hahas. and stayed on for HI club opening ceremony. Learnt sign language from A to Z, it was fun lor. and i managed to remember them. hahas. i am in class 1C and we played a word hunt game and our class got 1st place. hahas. and the class is quite small, with only 11 ppl. The ppl in HI club are like mostly from HMS lor. hahs. yeah. that should be all for today, then tmr going for aerobics 2 day 1 night camp. hahas. think it will be fun ba. hahs. (: tats all. good night ppl.

iloveyou. <3

2009-05-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

I am having Wricom tutorial now. Went to the libary just now to borrow books for the reference list thing. omg. i think i am like getting blurer as the days goes by. hahs. okay. well.

i am bored, so came and blog for now. hahas. well. lesson is ending soon and we'll have lunch time. 1 pm start another tutorial - PEE. but i like that module. hahas. (: will blog again soon. hahas. take care ppl.

(:

2009-05-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

I'm too lazy to post pictures. Argh. The weather is so warm. People Save The Earth. okay. i am like so random.

i still prefer small fonts. ahh. i wanted to blog stuff but now i cant cos i have no time i needa go sleep. hahs. in short, today i took cab home from bishan interchange. that driver sucks la. once i board the cab, he starts to like cough a few times without even covering his mouth. i'm like dusgusted la. okay. still have la, but lazy to write. yeah. okay. Good night ppl.

Ooo. having aerobics tmr. Fun. hahas. Take care

iloveyou. <3

2009-05-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

I dont have the mood to blog today. But, in short, i enjoyed myself today. Seriously, I am more than happy. Finally get to see ys after 1 month and also get to watch movie and have dinner with june. (: it's a nice day, and learnt some stuff from june as well. Will post in details maybe tmr and post some pics. take care ppl. goodnight.

iloveyou. <3

2009-05-01T19:48:00.002+08:00

Warning : Today's post is wordy, don't start reading if you can't take it.

today. i dont know why i'm having moodswings. sigh. i hate it la. seriously. sucks. This morning went to grandma house and had lunch at a vegetarian restaurant with my mum, aunt, grandma, cousin and maid. The food there is yummy. hahs.

recently, it seems like alot of things are happening and some things are going to change already. yes, i know there are things around me that are going to change and i think many of us needs time to adapt, get used to it. Maybe i'm like worrying too much, but i dont know, sometimes i just feel kinda sad though. i know it may seems nth much, but to me, it's quite a lot.

Matters regarding money seems so confusing, i dont know. sometimes i dont know why money matters. seriously, the more i think, the more confused i am. you can say i'm dumb or what. idk. i seems to be getting more confused. i think i should not bother, since i'm like still a teenager, not adult. i shall let them settle the matters. i only care abt matters of the heart. how everyone is feeling abt this situation. well, i wont elaborate here. yeah. i just need a place to rant as i'm kinda troubled.

today is public holiday, i wanted to spend this day happily and relaxed and stuff. hahs. but in the end... it's ok. i look forward to tmr. like finally getting to meet him after like 1 month. omg. it's so so long. hahs. it's ok. tata.

i think sometimes i weird, not many can read my mind, not many will understand what i am saying, not many will know where i am heading to. weird.

it's still the same three words. iloveyou. <3

2009-04-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

nothing much has happened today, just that today had a small small quiz during wricom lecture. hahs. just 5 questions of MCQ. yeah. well, today during PEE, joey, sylvia, michele and i laughed a lot la. hahs. the virus and scanner thing. hahs. well, i think only we knows wat we are talking abt. hahs. :)

so i decided to post photos again. Some is like taken some time ago. hahs.

I got a new phone - Samsung Pixon. So i was taking photos with the different effects and i took this two pics using the sketching effect. It is taken when i'm on mum's car on the way to grandma house. i love this effect. hahs. make me feel so artistic. lol.

so this 2 pics are like taken that day when we went to celebrate dwayne'sbirthday. hahs. june and i first took photo in the shop she's working in. yup. hahs. so after that met up with dwayne and yl then went to pepper lunch for dinner. so there were 2 more girls that came with dwayne. but didnt manage to get their pic. hahs. yup.

I'll post other photos tmr ba. Tmr not going anywhere with friends though it's a public holiday. But having lunch with grandma and some realatives. hahs. I shall wait for cynthia's call tmr. hahs. Good night ppl. (: Enjoy your hols. hahs.

i am so glad that i'll be seeing you real soon. it has been 1 month since i last saw you. time flies, hahs. take care my dear. (: iloveyou. <3

Beautiful Memories

2009-04-27T22:44:00.005+08:00

So i decided to post photos today. Some photos date back to quite long a few months back. But cause they all hold beautiful memories, so i decided to post them. Yup, which reminds me of a lot of things. All my beautiful memories.

It was during deci think, went to martin's birthday chalet. hahs. with yunsheng, and we were at the beach with warren. and they took photos of me with the sunset. Beautiful pics, i find it very well taken. (: hahs.

Ken and Remi, my niece and nephew who are half a japanese and half a chinese. omg. i miss them and my cousin. I don't always get to see them. But they are lovely kids. Especially now i'm taking CPEE, i miss them alot. Always during class will get reminded of them. Oh man. (: hahs. Hope that Remi will adapt well in her school.

Joey, Michele and Me

hahs. today we had ice cream during the one hour break. hahs. cool. ice cream cone for $1.50 and it's delicious. but i ate super slow. -.-' hahs

It's getting late, so i'm going to sleep soon. Will post more photos some other days. I've uploaded quite a few, but needa go sleep le. Cos i wanna pay attention in class, and not fall asleep. hahs. (:

i seriously hope to see you real soon. sometimes it's just so hard to be away for so long. imissyou. iloveyou. <3

2009-04-25T14:52:00.002+08:00

This morning i went to school for the aerobics trial. Michele smsed me early morning said she wasnt feeling well, so didnt go. well. so i went by myself. i reached super early. so i walked around like some kuku. then just sit outside gymwerkz and stone. yeah. they said nine, but we started everything at ten and it was a one hour trial. hahs. well, it's fun. hahs. really, and a great workout. just doing the warm up and we are all sweating already. hahs. with the music, everything is just so cool. hahs. yeah. Fun but tiring. (: so went home after that. actually nothing much happened today. it's just another weekend, another common weekend.
Recently, we are all so busy, it has been so long since we met. sometimes i do miss my sec sch days, hahs. probably it's still the start of poly life, i just needa get used to it. Poly life is fun but sometimes it's real tiring. travelling for like nearing an hour to sch, after all lectures and tutorials, travel another hour home. so tiring. hahs.

I miss so many people. i miss wl, yt and cynthia and i miss YOU. Ever since i started poly and ever since FAC has ended it's like i dont go back to zhss so didnt manage to meet my friends. hahs. busy busy. omg. tiring. alright. shall stop complaining. hahs. wanted to upload pictures la, beautiful memories of my past. hahs. but dunno whats wrong with my phone and the adapter. argh. nvm. next time post. yeah. tats all ba. tata

imissyou.iloveyou <3

2009-04-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

so today i just went back to sch from 9 to 10. well, just to do like some mel thing. yeah. nthing much actually. i dont know why i felt so lost in class today, really lost and confused. just all of a sudden, start turning on the laptop and stuff and got lost in i dont know what. yeah. think michele was quite surprised to see me so lost. hahs. yeah. but i enjoyed talking to her on the bus ride home. hahs. on the bus i like suddenly changed again. not lost and confused already. but laughed alot. hahs. and giggle alot. lol. yeah. so just now went to teac tuition at 1.30 then later gonna teach another tuition at 5 at khatib. sigh. feel so tired. hahs. wanted to post some pictures, but dun think i have much time left. perhaps post next time. yeah. pretty pics that i love. hahs. (: take care ppl.

sweetandsimple~iloveyou. <3

2009-04-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i last blogged. okay. so i shall start with what i still remember. so last sunday, went to millenia walk to find june, cos we meeting for dinner with dwayne and yiliang. yeah to sort of celebrate dwayne's birthday. yup. so it's quite alright cos it's been really long since i last saw them. hahs. yup. catch up a little with each other. hahs. yeah.

so monday, started school. First day of my poly life starts. hahs. well, it's fun actually. thats how i feel la. got to know my classmates. there are 21 of us, 19 girls and 2 boys. hahs. our course out of 84 students, think there's only 6 guys. hahs. okay. well, some classmates of mine keep saying i look motherly, hahs. oh. it's not look, but feel. hahs. idk. hahs. but it's okay. (: it's nice to have them around, in school i'm always happy. hahs. loads of laughters shared. hahs. seriously. i think i really laugh a lot. hahs. but it's wonderful to have them around in class. then every morning i bus-ed to school with michele, hahs. she's funny, on the way to sch we talked and laughed alot. hahs. yeah. it's so nice to have a pri sch friend in the same course AND same class. hahs. COOL. (: yup.

so today, i think the most interesting was PEE, hahs, played some games. quite funny though, during that class, we laughed alot again. hahs. joey is funny. hahs. teacher was like saying we are like pantium 1. hahs. LAG. and dawn also made me laughed like hell. hahs. well, thats what i like about our class. i feel that we have similar stuff at times and we shared happy moments. hopefully, it will always reamain like that throughout the years. (:

alright. gonna sleep soon. tmr going back sch for just 1 hour. omg. mel workshop. alright. tata. good night ppl. take cares. hahs

imissyou.seriously.takecare.iloveyou. <3

HMS FOC

2009-04-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

Day One

when i reached NP, was a little lost at first, my dad like droved around quite a few times not knowing where to go. hahs. but after that saw alot of ppl in different coloured clothes. hahs. and YES, found it! hahs. okays. so initially was a little quiet as i dont know anyone from my group. so the first friend that i made was yizhen and mabel. yizhen was in the same sub group as i do. so after some stuff then we settled to our groups and get to know more friends who are in the same group as i do, alina, ivy,aricia. we stayed at The Loft, it was a nice and beautiful apartment. hahs.

so first day was games, games and more games, we got wet and dried and wet again. hahs. love the water bombs lor. hahs. i dont know why sometimes alina and i will just keep laughing. hahs. yeah. the night games was fun too, especially the last game whereby we all got super drenched as we were trying to protect the candles. hahs. yeah. (: NICE.

Day Two

woke up at 8am, had amazing bingo race, thoughwe didnt complete alotof stations but the process is still the important thing. during the whole race i got to know my friends better, alton and jun ming. omg. this two guys anywhere also can sleep. on bus sleep, on train sleep, stand also sleep. hahs. they are funny la. okays. so had quite alot of fun. love my group - RUBBLES. love my house - KEALA~ yay! hahs.

Campfire was real HIGH. initially we were real worried abt our performance made some changes. butafterall it was a good job. (: so after all performance we had mass dance and we're getting real high. hahs. then it was party time. lights off with just some coloured lights real cool with music, everyone is dancing and cheering and jumping. hahs. it's really my first time enjoying myself so much, though sweat alot but truly enjoyed myself, hahs. at least alina was also very high and the both of us just got crazy. hahs. (: SWEET~

so in the end we didnt sleep, the guys came over to our room and ton and we played games. hahs, had alot of fun, we bonded alot too. all of us were like laughing alot too. hahs. yeah. so play, play, play then some went to sleep le. so left with alina, junming, alton and i with one more girl from Walla and our GLs, watched movie - home alone. yup. i think i was like quite SLOW and they just keep laghing at me. okays. nvm. but well~ still fine. hahs.

so jm went back first to sleep, and left alton, and suddenly the exco just came into our roon, all of us was shocked, and they look stern, so alton was told to go back. in the end left alina and i, we didnt wanted to sleep so started talking and talking, but we got tired and knocked out at 6.15 am, so slept like for 45 mins. hahs. we blabbered alot of no link stuff. hahs. (: nice memories.

Day Three

nothing much, just induction programme and got to know more about what our course do. (:

tats all. gonna sleep. tired. hahs. good night people. (:

alina and i

imissyou. iloveyou <3

2009-04-11T14:42:00.002+08:00

today went to amk hub for lunch with my parents, wanted to buy sneakers and jacket, but in the end didnt. sigh. never mind. maybe tmr night. so tmr i'm going to be the casualty for FAC. all the best for the fac teams. (: just do your best. yeah.
so monday i'll be having orientation camp already. time flies, approximately 5 months of holidays is coming to an end. but at least i had quite a meaningful holiday. worked for abt 2 months and still teaching tuition now. also played alot and went out with my friends and bf. yeah. had fun. they all had started sch for abt 2 months alr, so i had been hoping for this day to come- start of poly life. hahs. i will be busier once i start sch and lesser time for me to meet up with my friends and bf. well, but it's okay, i'll definitely find time. but sometimes they are even more busy than i do. hahs. also not easy to date them.
but at least we hold alot of beautiful memories. hahs. yup. (:

it has been 8 days since i last saw you. we used to see each other everyday. we used to hang around everyday. beautiful memories. i'll be used to this. hope to see you soon. (: iloveyou. <3

2009-04-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

recently, i'm like so bored. sigh. so went to teach tuition this afternoon and the evening. i don't know why, had been thinking alot again. especially just now, was on the train home, listening to music, everything just flashed through in my mind. everything. yeah. lols. i shan't talk much. nothing much to say also, perhaps just having moodswings.
next monday i'm having hms orientation camp, yeah. so looking forward to it. hahs. at least something for me to enjoy. yeap. hopefully, i'll enjoy it. (:
so tmr is good friday. but i think i ain't going anywhere. sigh. i wanna buy sneakers, jacket. omg. i'm like buying loads of stuff. hahs. alright. i wanna go catch my show. tata.

i really miss you. when was the last time i saw you? hahs. just take care alright. hope to see ya soon. iloveyou. <3

Love Life<3

2009-04-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

so this morning i was watching channel 52, kang xi lai le. then they were introducing this thing- lovelife. well it was started by hei ren and fan wei qi to help children with cancer. so they were introducing this. so i was interested and went to visit their website www.ilovelife.com.tw yup, there are lots of stuff there. after reading about those children who have such great ambitions but suffered from cancer, i feel that as a healthy person, we should always live our life to the fullest, we should always make use of the time that we have to do what we want to do, to let the people around us know that we care for them. yeah.

so yesterday i am into a lot of thinking. thought about alot of things, thought about things that happen to me and things that happen and affected others because of me. i realised that i actually miss the past, i know i'm not supposed to stay in the past, as people always say we got to move on. but i realised i do miss the past, miss those days when we talked, when we laughed, just miss everything. yeah. hahs. so i realised, it's really not easy to forget, but i believe all these will stay as part of my memory. and yea, move on. (:

i miss him. miss his presence. miss those days. hahs. though i said absence makes the love fonder. but, it's not easy. hahs. iloveyou<3

2009-04-07T12:26:00.002+08:00

well, it has been quite some time since i last blogged. yup. so recently days just pass by like that. nothing special, nothing BIG happened to me. hahs. so on fri went back to sch with cyn abd yt. went back for sjab. yeah, and we had pt with them, hahs. quite some time since i exercise with them. lol. should go run more. well, so we ended up playing volleyball, cyn was real funny, instead of hitting the ball, she likes to dodge the ball so everytime stuck at her side. well, but still enjoyable. :) so aft that met wei ling at amk hub for dinner. cos wl said to celebrate our belated '4ever4' anniversary. hahs. 5 years of friendship and still counting on. yup. so apart from that, nothing special. i'm going to pay offerings to my grandpa later, and piano lesson tonight. recently practicing the sonatina album. sigh. anyway, i recieved a call from zhss just now, hahs. i was awarded the outstanding leadership award. so gotta go back sch to pass them some stuff in order to get my money. hahs. efforts paid off. (: well. that should be all, gonna apply for scholarship and bursary online. yup. take care peeps.

absence makes the love fonder. believe. <3

2009-04-01T11:51:00.002+08:00

hey ppl. so lets start from yesterday. yup, yesterday went to bishan GV watched hotel for dogs with ys. hahs. the movie is great. cos there are a lot of dogs, hahs. den it's so touching so i cried quite alot and ys is sitting there laughing at me. he finds it funny that i keep laughing. okays. whatever. so yeah nice movie. cos he was having sore throat so we bought sushi and sweets and marshmellows to smuggle in. hahs. yeah. so aft the movie he went bak for training and i went home to cook. hahs. mum wants me to cook. so yeah i cooked a corn stew and fried egg and salmon. delicious. :)
so today, since it's aprils' fool, early in the morning i got a lil shock (thanks for the msg) but i managed to see through the trick cos it was used on me before. hahs. yeah. hmm, and today ys didnt go sch cos he was really sick. oh man. get well soon okays. gotta take care. i'm also getting a lil bit of cough. later gotta teach tuition and will be going down to hq today with the sjab ppl. fac is just round the corner. jia you ppl. alright thats all for today.
take care alright. get well soon. <3

2009-03-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

hey, so yesterday i went back to malaysia to pay offerings to my grandparents. time flies, my granny had already passed away for 4 years. yeah. recently there was this show on channel 47, cctv which talks bout the family with a senile granny. man. that show reminds me so much of my granny, it's just so touching that i had cried several times watching it. hahs. well, yeah, so got a bit of sunburn cos the weather is so hot and the sun is so high up. hahs. yeah

so for today, this morning went for otc interview with cynthia, everything went well, we all got to go for otc except the no. 13 and 14 still pending. yeah. hopefully all can go, tat'll be great. :) so was quite nervous initially for the interview and they asked me so many questions cos zhss already have alot of officers. yeah. but overall still fine. so after tat went to have lunch with cynthia at army market, so long didnt go le lor. hahs. yeah. hmm. tat should be all for now. gonna go watch wu lin da dao. hahs.

take care my dear. get well soon. :) love you <3

2009-03-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was KaiTing's birthday. so i sent her a card on wednesday. she recieved it yesterday and she smsed me telling me she was seriouslysurprised. hahas. i missed her alot. it's been so so long since we last saw each other. missed those days when we had so much fun during our primary sch times. :) yeah.
so yesterday i went to zhss had quite a long talk, trying to share experiences and talk sense. yeah. hope everything will be fine real soon alright.
saw june's post on her blog, hahs. i was touched. it's really nice to have a sweet and wonderful friend. at times she hold me up, at times i'll hold her up. tats what friends are for. we hold each other up when they're falling. hahs. love her. :)
so later i'm going to teach tuition, the lil boy again. hahs. then after that going to zhss again. today have sjab training. so i'vemade up my mind and decided to go for OTC. yup. alright thats all for today then. take care ppl.

enjoy your day. (:

2009-03-24T14:59:00.002+08:00

So for quite some days i've not been blogging, thus i shall blog abt my past few days briefly.

SATURDAY
went to lower pierce reservoir with my mum and some tvps students and a teacher. quite an enjoyable trip with the kids. i love to hang ard with kids, i think children are more carefree, not that much things to worry about. hahs. miss my childhood times. so after that went to june's sis house at buangkok which is like just opposite ys block, hahs. went there to meet them and went to east coast park together with june and her sis's family. june's niece is so kawaii. though naughty at times but well, still adorable. (: so went east coast park and june's friends went as well so quite alot of ppl there. hahs. but the nice weather changed and it started to rain so no cycling for us and beach watching. so wet weather programme? went to arcade. hahs. so stayed there for quite long hoping that rain will soon stop. in the end went to beach enjoy the breeze a lil and we got to go. so i went to june sis hse for dinner, june's bro-in-law cooked spaghetti for us it was delicious. Spicy one for me, yum yum. hehes. and we watched the dvd Sweet November. it was a touching love story, felt like crying but cos her sis family are there so i didnt. went home together with june, talked alot of stuff, chat alot, enjoyed the day with her. :)

SUNDAY
didnt do much on this day. went grandma hse and brought her out to go cut hair and ate lunch at rivervale mall with mum and grandma and her maid. so it was more of a family day. hahs. yeah, bought loads of stuff from ntuc though. wanna cook for my parents. hehs.

MONDAY

went to the clinic and had my urine test done, so they said i was not immunised from Hepatitis B so i had to get immunised. it requires three jabs and 1 jab cost 30 plus so total will be about 100 plus. but it's okay cos health is still the most important. yeah. hahs. So went khatib to teach tuition after that, a new primary 6 student. a boy again, so now all my students are little boys. hahs. it's okay, i enjoyed teaching him, cos he's a very good student, at least he listens to me. hahs. yeap, so i'll think of carry on teaching him even if i start poly soon.

TODAY

so today, well not going anywhere just that tonight i'm having piano lesson. so woke up in the morning and started to watch this korean drama- endless love, june's sis lend it to me. it was really touching i had already cried several times when watching this drama, hahs. i think i do cry easily sometimes. hahas. nvm. so now i'm done with blogging. thats abt it. :)

imissyoumydear <3

2009-03-20T23:00:00.001+08:00

today went to find ys so spend quite a lot of time with him, yeah for the whole afternoon actually. hahs. well, so was supposed to teach a new student tonight but she say last minute she was called back for work so yeah cancelled. so was here blogging now. so now chatting with cynthia then she wants to use webcam so it's like so dumb. hahs. so she kept laughing and i kept laughing in the end realised no sund. so ended the call. hahs. needa go sleep soon. tmr morning going pierce reservoir with mum yeah so going to go sleep le. hahs.
thanksmydear.
iloveyou. <3

2009-03-19T16:23:00.000+08:00

Today is another boring day. so i was supposed to go 2e3's outing at sentosa, but i gotta teach tuition later and need to settle my stuff so in the end i chose not to go... yeah, a lil disappointed but oh well, it's ok will try to go next time. so in the end i stayed at home and pack my stuff and use the comp. I don'tknow why sometimes i'll start to think alot,especially when i'm alone. maybe because when no one is ard me i'll have time to think a lot and think hard and think abt so many things. hahs. perhaps sometimes it's actually good to self reflect a little.
Self reflecting reminds me of how blessed i am and to let me know myself better. Sometimes i feel that i'm weird, maybe others will also find me weird sometimes. Maybe as an only child, i will prefer to keep quiet at times but sometimes i'll be a lil crazy as well(not really a lil). hahs. i dont know why, maybe thats justme. yeah. sometimes i just like to rant and rant. perhaps i'm notvery good at expressing myself through words so sometimes ppl get the wrong idea of what i truly want andwhat i'mtruly thinking.
well,ifeelthatthhumanmindissoconfusing.canyouimaginewecantseewhatpplarethinkingandsometimeswejustdontknowifthey'respeakingthe truthornotsoit'slikeomg.yeah.funnyrightsighithinkthehumanmindisweirdactually.wellpplareweirdattimesright.hahs.okays.tatsallidont feellikesayingsomuchalready,maybeit'sbecausetodayi'mjustfeelingalildownhahassojiuwritemorestuff.yeah.nothingelse,offtopreparefor tuitionle.sigh.
i<3you

2009-03-17T10:02:00.000+08:00

Hey, so i'm here blogging again. yesterday went to ngee ann poly with junie to hand up the registration form for hms orientation camp. then we had lunch at te newly open food court. hmm the food at np is actually quite delicious. hahs. and so many things to choose from. lol. yeah so after that went to the software top up place cos junie needs to topup somesoftware. hahs.
the bus ride home is tiring. omg. take so long cos it's raining. so when sch starts i'll have to take such a long bus ride everyday. hahs. okay. need to go cut hair soon. so yeah. blog again next time. hahs. later going cycling with yt in the evening. woohoos. so long didnt cycle miss it. hahs. :)

2009-03-14T14:39:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY
well,yesterday went to watch The One at NYJC cos cynthia participated and got into top four among the solo category. yeah. bought her a bouquet flowers. hahs. GOODJOB CYNTHIA!! hahas.

TODAY
early morning, not really EARLY.okays. went to blk330 fo medical checkup at a clinic was like super nervous. hahs. cos taking blood test and its like first time in the 17 years of my life. oh well, so i was like scared scared scared. but the doctor super friendly talk talk talk and told me to relax. hahs. den tats it i relaxed a lil and realised okay it's not really super painful. hahs. but he took so much of my blood. omg. hahas. so i was then referred to another place which is near wl house for x-ray. waited for quite sometime and the real x-ray only took me less the 3 mins. hahas. waste time. but at least i got the stuffs done.

i bought my notebook already. fugitsu lifebook that lightweight one. and also bought a garskin. hahs. the promoter took so much time to persuade and talk to us to but the lifebook de.wanted to buy the other but was quite heavy 2.5kg so in the end bought fugitsu lifebook which weigh 1.7kg. hahs. yeah.

my post are always very wordy. hahs. but nvm since i like to talk bout what comes to my mind. yeah. i've been feeling bored recently. so wanna start sch soon. yeah. soon. april 20.

piano exam in 2 days time. omg. practice hard!

celebrated wei ling's birthday

2009-03-10T12:51:00.000+08:00

Anyway yesterday we (yt,jw,cyn,ms and i) celebrated wei ling's birthday at pizza hut. Initially, jw,cyn and i were sitting in Nebo as yt suggested this. So while waiting for the rest we were looking at the menu and we don't feel like eating anything from there, however we do not dare to leave as we already sat there for like more than 15 mins. Oh well, but in the end once wei ling come, she gave us the courage to just stand up and leave the place. hahs. was seriously quite malu, but nvm, went to pizza hut in the end.

Before that in the morning i went to grandma house and made baby cup cakes for wei ling. Here are some pictures.

Well, this is the word that i formed. hahas. 'Happy Birthday Wei Ling' yeah, quite fun lur, used a toothpick to stick it one by one. hahas.

Then after making wl cup cakes, i made for the rest of them with their initials. couldn't use Y as there are two Ys. Yt and Yh. so used T and H. hahas.

yeah. so thats all and went off to celebrate wl birthday.

seriously we laughed alot at pizza hut, all thanks to cynthia lee telling everyone she learnt spanish and started to lie to wl. trained alot of stomach muscles huh. hahas. cynthia was so serious that at one time i almost believed that she really did learn in nyjc. hahas. wl followed what cynthia said and it was super funny. omg. hahas.

thinking back, i'm really glad to have this group of friends, they made me laughed a lot. being with them just make me feel happy all the time. though they're now in jcs, but we still get to go out together and stuffs. haahs. hopefully when my poly life starts, we'll still get to hang ard together as usual. :)

thats all for now. off to play piano.

i'm worried, omg, so so worried for that BIG day.

imissyou.

2009-03-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

just testing. well it's a new blog again so just trying out. will remain using this classic version. maybe next time then i change the blogskin. hahas.