omg. i wanted to blog about malaysia. but it seems that i have no time. and seriously, i am feeling stress. omg. though i know it's my fault for doing work so late. sigh sigh. i really need to change this. procrastinating is damn bad and i think it kills. argh. nvm. i will get back to do work now. cos tmr i have otc course so no time to do. no choice, blog some other time. take care people. bye
stress stress stress stress stress stress stress.. zzz. sigh.
iloveyou. <3
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
200609
hahas. went to watch movie today with ys. Monster VS.Aliens in 3D. Coooooooooooooooool!! 3D is kind of cool. lol. every time some things will like suddenly pop out in front of me. and i just feel like grabbing it. and sometimes it will suddenly shock both of us. hahs. so funny. laughed a lot in the cinema. and we are surrounded by kids, so i feel like a kid too. hahs. so after watching movie we went to habourfront centre and ate at Ramenten. yup. ate the spicy ramen and i started sniffing away. lol. but it's not bad la. (: we went toys 'r' us. hahas. spent so much time inside la. playing with the toys and looking here looking there. haha. so many kids went with their parents. lol. and i felt so dumb in there doing all the stupid things but it's fun. (: hahas. Some photos to share.
us.
twist.
bird face la. look so guai lan. hahas.
so at toys 'r' us i saw new mickey and minnie stuff so i started to spend money turning capsules. hahas. and these are what i got.
2 blue ones, 2 circle ones, and 1 yellow one. so ys took 2 and i took 3. lol.
i like this water colour effect. lol.
dumb dumb.
what's with tat face la. lol. (:
i like this effect. haha. (:
hmm. that's all for now. gonna go sleep soon. tmr need to help out for singma competition. hahs. take care people. (:
so sweet of you today uh. (: i love you. <3
us.
twist.
bird face la. look so guai lan. hahas.
so at toys 'r' us i saw new mickey and minnie stuff so i started to spend money turning capsules. hahas. and these are what i got.
2 blue ones, 2 circle ones, and 1 yellow one. so ys took 2 and i took 3. lol.
i like this water colour effect. lol.
dumb dumb.
what's with tat face la. lol. (:
i like this effect. haha. (:
hmm. that's all for now. gonna go sleep soon. tmr need to help out for singma competition. hahs. take care people. (:
so sweet of you today uh. (: i love you. <3
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
sometimes i don't understand why people's attitude change so fast. sometimes i don't know if i am still being who i am. sometimes i seem to have lost myself. i think a lot when i am alone, when i didn't receive a reply, when i am worried and stress. that's just me, idk how can i change. i don't like it, seriously. but there are times when i really don't understand what's the point of being so nice. things change, people change, the world is changing. everything change. or is it the biggest thing that change is me? idk what am i talking abt here. it's just that i put everything that i am thinking about now,everything going thru my mind together.
sometimes that motivation is just gone. the feeling once so strong also gone. these are times when i feel like i am falling once again. falling back down, need to start to climb up all the way again. the process is not easy. seriously. sometimes, i just wanna give up, i know this is bad, really bad. that's why i am still holding on. i don't wanna make a wrong decision, i don't wanna regret. yes. i can't. is it when i start to open up, start to trust, i get thrown down again. why is it always happening. it's like a cycle, repeating itself, how can i stop?
Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
i am still waiting, waiting, waiting. till then, iloveyou.
sometimes that motivation is just gone. the feeling once so strong also gone. these are times when i feel like i am falling once again. falling back down, need to start to climb up all the way again. the process is not easy. seriously. sometimes, i just wanna give up, i know this is bad, really bad. that's why i am still holding on. i don't wanna make a wrong decision, i don't wanna regret. yes. i can't. is it when i start to open up, start to trust, i get thrown down again. why is it always happening. it's like a cycle, repeating itself, how can i stop?
Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
i am still waiting, waiting, waiting. till then, iloveyou.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
OTC Camp
I am finally back from OTC! actually is yesterday but just too tired to blog. hahas. (:
tired but fun and challenging. inspiring. love OTC'09. love Tango!! (:
Day 1
booked in at 4.45 so we fall in and the usual stuff was done. quite some time ago since i was like a cadet again. hahas. falling in and every thing.(: then had lecture conducted by sir william lesson one - what's your potential? hahas. he talked about our timing for 2.4 km run, so we were thinking there must be running the next morning. then the next slide showed, so will go for a run NOW. omg, that time was around 5 plus and i didnt eat lunch that day la. so reluctantly i went. all of us ran, ran 1st round my timing improved as compared to usual. glad. (: then still need run 2nd round. he said 2nd round is the time when more ppl give up cos everyone is tired alr. true. i did give up a little, cos was running alone, no motivation, only motivation by myself. hahas. and some others who run past and just said jia you and all the way. hahas. then had dinner. and had triage, kind of chaotic. hmm, maybe not very well done thats what i think. cynthia and i transported a girl down with 2 other guys as well from the 3rd floor. tiring. hahas. slept around 1 plus. and reporting time for next day 4.45 am.
Day 2
Morning run from greenview sec all the way to pair ris park. running again. in this OTC camp, it's actually very physical but what they focused on is mental. they kept emphasizing that it's all in the mind! quite true. many times when u think that u want to give up, u will really give up soon. and during the run i am really sleepy. hahas. and after that i think we had ultimate challenge. it was really challenging. groups of five. so my group have wei qi, jasmine, qian cheng and samuel. haha. it'll take super long for me to say everything so a shorter version one.
we had to hold there in pumping position/crunches position until it is our team's turn. so we had to climb that rope thing, it's my first time la. climbing that rope with assist from others. then weiqi was the lightest so we got her to lie on stretcher den like it's like toc, climbing on benches to get her through obstacle. then did 100 pumpings shared with grp so 20 each. aft that pull up need do 30 each grp. lol. do we did it too with assist from others. it's all about strategy and helping each other i suppose. then had shuttle run or something. then it's the piggyback thing. lol. so last station is leopard crawl. then went back climb that rope again and ring the bell. lol. really tiring. seriously.
Day 3
had run again that 2.4km one but this time round is with group, so we were to strategise and set a target. so we run together as a group. this time it was better, cos in a group, we motivate each other, and cheered each other on, i didnt give up even when i am tired, i just kept running. the whole feeling is different. i think in life, we should always work as a team, then we can travel far, working alone might not have the same result. so our target was 17 mins. but we came back at 17 min 58 sec. but they said +1 is fine. and we were alright. then had to go 2nd round. complete within 25 mins, second round is not easy, seriously. my legs felt as if it's going to detatch from my body any time la. omg. hahas. we ran for 20 mins. quite alright i think. (: goooood job. hahs. sir qing jun doesnt like the goooooooood job cheer. lol
camp fire at night, our dance performance during practice seems not very good, and the sound system had problems and at night. but our grp does not need music. hahas. dance without music, so cool la. we sing by ourselves. we are so special.(: danced cannibal king combine 2 sentence of because of you and combine 1st short part of nobody. think it was funny. hahas. seriously. good job ppl. hahs. and i was the cadet course commander of the day. nice experience. (:
Day 4
3 am oh maybe earlier. gathered and prepared for road march. 16 km of road march from changi all the way back to greenview sec. my eyes can hardly open and see things. i almost fell alot of times. and cant walk sraigt, hahas. luckily ppl at the back kept pulling me back on track. hahas. thanks ah. (: but after that reached greenview at i dont know what time but the sun is out alr. lol. and had debrief, area cleaning and stuff.
Sir william is very inspiring. his lectures inspired me alot and i had a lot of self reflection. so i learnt a lot in the camp. (: had a lot of fun also. really tired but fun, motivating and inspiring. alright. that should be all. need to sleep. mum is going to scream soon. hahas. (:
good night ppl. take care!
disappointment. sometimes the more u anticipate something, the more disappointed you'll be. it's okay. i will be strong. (: i will still be happy. for now, i still can take it. sometimes i dont know what's the point of being so nice. sigh.
i love you.
tired but fun and challenging. inspiring. love OTC'09. love Tango!! (:
Day 1
booked in at 4.45 so we fall in and the usual stuff was done. quite some time ago since i was like a cadet again. hahas. falling in and every thing.(: then had lecture conducted by sir william lesson one - what's your potential? hahas. he talked about our timing for 2.4 km run, so we were thinking there must be running the next morning. then the next slide showed, so will go for a run NOW. omg, that time was around 5 plus and i didnt eat lunch that day la. so reluctantly i went. all of us ran, ran 1st round my timing improved as compared to usual. glad. (: then still need run 2nd round. he said 2nd round is the time when more ppl give up cos everyone is tired alr. true. i did give up a little, cos was running alone, no motivation, only motivation by myself. hahas. and some others who run past and just said jia you and all the way. hahas. then had dinner. and had triage, kind of chaotic. hmm, maybe not very well done thats what i think. cynthia and i transported a girl down with 2 other guys as well from the 3rd floor. tiring. hahas. slept around 1 plus. and reporting time for next day 4.45 am.
Day 2
Morning run from greenview sec all the way to pair ris park. running again. in this OTC camp, it's actually very physical but what they focused on is mental. they kept emphasizing that it's all in the mind! quite true. many times when u think that u want to give up, u will really give up soon. and during the run i am really sleepy. hahas. and after that i think we had ultimate challenge. it was really challenging. groups of five. so my group have wei qi, jasmine, qian cheng and samuel. haha. it'll take super long for me to say everything so a shorter version one.
we had to hold there in pumping position/crunches position until it is our team's turn. so we had to climb that rope thing, it's my first time la. climbing that rope with assist from others. then weiqi was the lightest so we got her to lie on stretcher den like it's like toc, climbing on benches to get her through obstacle. then did 100 pumpings shared with grp so 20 each. aft that pull up need do 30 each grp. lol. do we did it too with assist from others. it's all about strategy and helping each other i suppose. then had shuttle run or something. then it's the piggyback thing. lol. so last station is leopard crawl. then went back climb that rope again and ring the bell. lol. really tiring. seriously.
Day 3
had run again that 2.4km one but this time round is with group, so we were to strategise and set a target. so we run together as a group. this time it was better, cos in a group, we motivate each other, and cheered each other on, i didnt give up even when i am tired, i just kept running. the whole feeling is different. i think in life, we should always work as a team, then we can travel far, working alone might not have the same result. so our target was 17 mins. but we came back at 17 min 58 sec. but they said +1 is fine. and we were alright. then had to go 2nd round. complete within 25 mins, second round is not easy, seriously. my legs felt as if it's going to detatch from my body any time la. omg. hahas. we ran for 20 mins. quite alright i think. (: goooood job. hahs. sir qing jun doesnt like the goooooooood job cheer. lol
camp fire at night, our dance performance during practice seems not very good, and the sound system had problems and at night. but our grp does not need music. hahas. dance without music, so cool la. we sing by ourselves. we are so special.(: danced cannibal king combine 2 sentence of because of you and combine 1st short part of nobody. think it was funny. hahas. seriously. good job ppl. hahs. and i was the cadet course commander of the day. nice experience. (:
Day 4
3 am oh maybe earlier. gathered and prepared for road march. 16 km of road march from changi all the way back to greenview sec. my eyes can hardly open and see things. i almost fell alot of times. and cant walk sraigt, hahas. luckily ppl at the back kept pulling me back on track. hahas. thanks ah. (: but after that reached greenview at i dont know what time but the sun is out alr. lol. and had debrief, area cleaning and stuff.
Sir william is very inspiring. his lectures inspired me alot and i had a lot of self reflection. so i learnt a lot in the camp. (: had a lot of fun also. really tired but fun, motivating and inspiring. alright. that should be all. need to sleep. mum is going to scream soon. hahas. (:
good night ppl. take care!
disappointment. sometimes the more u anticipate something, the more disappointed you'll be. it's okay. i will be strong. (: i will still be happy. for now, i still can take it. sometimes i dont know what's the point of being so nice. sigh.
i love you.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
OTC Camp
tmr is the start of OTC Camp!!! booking in at 4.45pm and last day is on 15th. 4 days 3 nights camp, clashes with ZHSS Training Camp. Can't go back to help out. 4 days 3 nights i will be uncontactable as we have to surrender our phones.
people, don't miss me. (: hahas
today had dpl and wricomm test, should be fine, though i think dpl is a little bad, cause i forget the observational tools stuff. yeah, but well, finally can rest a little.
alright, gotta go pack my camp bag alr. hahas. (:
take care ppl. bye!
i will miss you. I love you. <3
people, don't miss me. (: hahas
today had dpl and wricomm test, should be fine, though i think dpl is a little bad, cause i forget the observational tools stuff. yeah, but well, finally can rest a little.
alright, gotta go pack my camp bag alr. hahas. (:
take care ppl. bye!
i will miss you. I love you. <3
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
it has been so long since i last posted. currently i am at wricomm tutorial. hahas. this shows that i am not paying attention, this is bad. lol. (:
ji wei's birthday celebration on Friday
met wei ling earlier to get her present ready. hahas. so went to develop photos and stuff, then met ji wei at bishan J8, ate at pasta mania, then went to playground to pass her her cake, it was actually quite obvious that we were going to surprise her with a cake, yah, so she just played along. hahas. pictures speak a thousand words. (:
wei ling with our presents for jiwei
wl and i with the presents. (:
us again
we gave jw her cake here. hahas. and celebrated here.
jw say it's very warm there which is true, thus she rolled up her jeans. hahs.
i think this photo is so cool. taken through this peep hole for kids.
then we went to the monopoly place to take photos hahas.
three of us
three of us on the car (:
Went for Miss Azreen's Wedding on Sunday
yitong and i
we were camwhoring in the toilet. hahs. this is just a summary. -.-
i am lazy to post more photos. so will post them on fb. yep. (:
that's all for now, i spent like 2 days to post. okay i know it's retard. got to go now. hahas. joey is like rushing me. gotta study for DPL and Wricomm. bye!
i love you. <3
ji wei's birthday celebration on Friday
met wei ling earlier to get her present ready. hahas. so went to develop photos and stuff, then met ji wei at bishan J8, ate at pasta mania, then went to playground to pass her her cake, it was actually quite obvious that we were going to surprise her with a cake, yah, so she just played along. hahas. pictures speak a thousand words. (:
wei ling with our presents for jiwei
wl and i with the presents. (:
us again
we gave jw her cake here. hahas. and celebrated here.
jw say it's very warm there which is true, thus she rolled up her jeans. hahs.
i think this photo is so cool. taken through this peep hole for kids.
then we went to the monopoly place to take photos hahas.
three of us
three of us on the car (:
Went for Miss Azreen's Wedding on Sunday
yitong and i
we were camwhoring in the toilet. hahs. this is just a summary. -.-
i am lazy to post more photos. so will post them on fb. yep. (:
that's all for now, i spent like 2 days to post. okay i know it's retard. got to go now. hahas. joey is like rushing me. gotta study for DPL and Wricomm. bye!
i love you. <3
Monday, June 1, 2009
Happy 17th Birthday JUNE!!!
hahas. today after sch went marina square to meet june and her friends. but basicallyi know most of her friends la. lol. yeap. so it's like so busy today, woke up early to do my essay and the present, then met michele to go sch and do project and had prop tutorial. yeah. so it's like busy busy. well, i believe june enjoyed her birtday with her friends. hahas. (: good good. made a ppt slide show for her. she's touched by it. so glad. lol. yea. so ate dinner at yoshinoya and it's like one of her friend went back first. and i suddenly remembered that i gotta bring banana and some stuff, so went to search. was damn worried, the time was 9.35, shops are startingto close. yeah so june and the rest of her friends went to search for a supermarket with me. hahs. thanks so much ppl. but waiyi and cher in left first with two other guys. so left yl, ah, vincent, june and i. they went to market place with me to get apples and banana. it's really thoughtful and sweet of them to run ard with me searching for stuff. (: thanks ppl, truly touched. hahs. esp when anhock was like missing suddenly, then he ran back with one banana that he bought from that thai shop or something. lol. hahas. okay. it was funny la. seriously. so aft tat finally got my stuff and trained home with them.
will post the photos some other time, eh. nope, no photos abt today, it's all with june. hahas. (: take care ppl. good night.
sometimes it's just so irritating and annoying that i wanna give up. i don't understand now. i can't read minds. sigh. oh well, whatever.
i miss you. see ya soon alright. take care. i love you. <3
hahas. today after sch went marina square to meet june and her friends. but basicallyi know most of her friends la. lol. yeap. so it's like so busy today, woke up early to do my essay and the present, then met michele to go sch and do project and had prop tutorial. yeah. so it's like busy busy. well, i believe june enjoyed her birtday with her friends. hahas. (: good good. made a ppt slide show for her. she's touched by it. so glad. lol. yea. so ate dinner at yoshinoya and it's like one of her friend went back first. and i suddenly remembered that i gotta bring banana and some stuff, so went to search. was damn worried, the time was 9.35, shops are startingto close. yeah so june and the rest of her friends went to search for a supermarket with me. hahs. thanks so much ppl. but waiyi and cher in left first with two other guys. so left yl, ah, vincent, june and i. they went to market place with me to get apples and banana. it's really thoughtful and sweet of them to run ard with me searching for stuff. (: thanks ppl, truly touched. hahs. esp when anhock was like missing suddenly, then he ran back with one banana that he bought from that thai shop or something. lol. hahas. okay. it was funny la. seriously. so aft tat finally got my stuff and trained home with them.
will post the photos some other time, eh. nope, no photos abt today, it's all with june. hahas. (: take care ppl. good night.
sometimes it's just so irritating and annoying that i wanna give up. i don't understand now. i can't read minds. sigh. oh well, whatever.
i miss you. see ya soon alright. take care. i love you. <3
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