sometimes i don't understand why people's attitude change so fast. sometimes i don't know if i am still being who i am. sometimes i seem to have lost myself. i think a lot when i am alone, when i didn't receive a reply, when i am worried and stress. that's just me, idk how can i change. i don't like it, seriously. but there are times when i really don't understand what's the point of being so nice. things change, people change, the world is changing. everything change. or is it the biggest thing that change is me? idk what am i talking abt here. it's just that i put everything that i am thinking about now,everything going thru my mind together.
sometimes that motivation is just gone. the feeling once so strong also gone. these are times when i feel like i am falling once again. falling back down, need to start to climb up all the way again. the process is not easy. seriously. sometimes, i just wanna give up, i know this is bad, really bad. that's why i am still holding on. i don't wanna make a wrong decision, i don't wanna regret. yes. i can't. is it when i start to open up, start to trust, i get thrown down again. why is it always happening. it's like a cycle, repeating itself, how can i stop?

Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.

i am still waiting, waiting, waiting. till then, iloveyou.