Went to mahaprajna this morning for graduation ceremony. This year i didn't go back for lessons cos i was pretty busy. but i really do miss those times there. I don't know, but when i go back there last week and this week, although i have not seen my friends there for about a year, but when i go back to that familiar place, i felt safe, calmness and peace and it just feels right there. Sometimes i really do enjoy the peacefulness and calmness in mahaprajna. after that went to orchard lido to meet mich, jo and mcking for group proj. did some work and went ion muji. hahs.

sometimes i feel as though i've lost myself, sometimes i want my old self back, but i can't find it. i don't like it. seriously. sometimes i don't even know how should i act. be normal, be natural how? oh well. think I'm thinking toooo much and i think I'm being sensitive. yeah maybe. hahs.

alright. after ranting i shall go do homework. i gotta rush my chlt now. Jiayou!

i miss you. how i wish you were here right now. i love you. <3.

Hectic Life

Recently life has been really hectic and busy. Life has been stressful, i am flooded with assignments and projects. I think time management is really important, i think i gotta work on this. My time management SUCKS. I feel so not organised, i feel like everything is so packed, so not well planned, my life, i got to plan it myself, get it organised. I seriously need an organised schedule and a plan of what am i gonna do. I can't function well now. Hahs. make me sound like i am some robot or something. Oh well~

Priorities, priorities. What's my priorities. In life, there are many things that we got to do, the most important thing is to know what's our priorities, if we don't get our priorities right, we wont be efficient in what we do. Well, I know it's really important to have priorities, but do you really know what you want in life, do you really know what are your priorities?

"Don't tell me your problems, tell me your solutions." quoted from ys which was from zw. hahs. quite true huh. We always complain and complain, rant and rant. Complaining about our problems and stuff, but we always didn't think about what should we do instead. What's the point of complaining when you are not thinking of any solutions to solve the problems. Action speaks louder than words. Seriously. BUT it's easier to be said than done. HAHS. contradicting? I think afterall, it's up to us to see what we want, how we want to solve it or just leave it there as if things will work out themselves.

SO, leowyihang what are you still waiting for. Wake up man. start to plan and organise your life, or else you are just gonna be good at nothing. Manage your own time, think of ways that you can get things done and overcome this. You need time for sjab, hi club, piano, projects, individual assignments, family time, own personal time etc etc. everyone have the same 24hrs, if others can do it why can't you? Come on man, buck up. JIAYOU!!

i shall leave it here today...

i am sorry i dont have much time for you nowadays. you are going camp soon, going china soon. i will miss you. i will find time to meet you alright. take care. iloveyou. <3

currently in school doing project. sigh. there's like so many projects? hahs. oh well. time flies man. sians. tats all. nothing much today. hahs. just bored. well well. till then~


takecareokays.getwellsoon.notfeelingwellshouldseeadoctor.loveyou<3

yoohoo. it's me blogging. hehe. asssignments and projects are coming again. it's like so so many things to do. and currently i am doing my materials for the IP. hahs. yeah. so there's nothing much these few days. things are still the same. i am still going through the same routine everyday. school, work, sleep. school, work, sleep. sometimes i wonder why people also work like a robot. oh, maybe it's just me? well well. hahs. it's okay. high S likes routine, right. LOL! so spent so much time in the library today, searching high and low for dpl library search. T.T

going library tmr again to do chlt and tetl. yeah. busy and hectic life. my schedule is so so packed. i need to breathe!! apparently my life is almost fully packed from monday to friday. sad. :(

i shall go and sleep soon. goodnight ppl.

quite shocking, oh well life's unpredictable, sometimes ppl just dont understand _____. sigh.saddening though.


iloveyouandimissyouterribly. :(

finally updated! (:

It's my 60th post. hahs. so so so long since i last posted. oh well. internet at home sucks, always give me problems. but it's okay. hmm. so many things have happened recently. grandma is staying with me already. the house at siang kwang ave is officially sold, all my childhood memories there with my cousins. hahs. it's okay, i have pictures. (:

Yesterday

i was on the bus home after HI club. i was on 261, there was this blind man, he was singing so so loudly on the bus, everyone is finding him weird, crazy,scary. I wont deny that i do felt a little afraid of him. but he said some words that made me felt helpless, felt sad. he sang so much, sang so loud so as to gain people's words of encouragement. i dont know what to say, how to help. so he was abt to get off the bus, but he does not know which stop, so i told him then he got down at the same stop as me. No one approached to help him. he just crossed the road, right in the middle of a cross junction, everyone was staring at him, shocked, worried, but no one helped him. i was worried so i ran across the road to help him. but after that i felt scared, i dont know why, but i know i cant back out already since i started helping him, so i walked him to the hawker centre and ordered food and drinks. sigh. oh well.

i shall upload some pictures for these few days.

ys and i

dumbdumb. (:

tata. thats me caught eating choco ice cream. hohoho

thats all. hahs.

Went grandma hse this mornin to help out in the garage sale. hahs. loads of antiques there. i shall post photos next time since i dont have much time now. gotta continue to pack my bag for china trip. heh. so had lunch at grandma hse then ard 4 plus yk and yp wanna go play pool. hahs. but i am not really a fan of playing pool so asked them to watch movie. heh. and they agreed. hehs. so it's like another cousin outing. so went amk hub with yk and yp to watch 500 days of summer. uhm. that movie is alright i think, but i take kinda long to get it. and the 2 of them are like gonna faint cos of the questions i ask. hahs. oh well, i think i am just slow la at getting the story all these. LOL! i am going to malaysia tmr morning, and will be boarding plane from KL airport with the rest of my relatives, going CHINA for 5 days i think. hahs. it's been ages since i last board plane. hope i will have fun and enjoy the last week of my holidays. (: heh.
joey also will be going HONGKONG i think. hope she'll have fun too and BON VOYAGE! hahs.
i do hope sch starts soon. get to see my friends and classmates. oh well. hahs.

i will miss you!!!! take care yah! loveyou <3

it has been super long since i last posted. and i think my blog is like so dead. So many things has happened. i'm still having holidays now. oh well and went for attachment and 2 camps in my hols. So attachment was fine and fun knowing all the kids etc. hahs. went to TCP camp followed by HI! Club camp. Both camps were GREAT! enjoyed myself totally in TCP camp, made new friends and learnt alot of stuff and had a great time! hahs. team HERCULES! woohoos. lol.
so after that was HI! Club camp from 1st Oct to 3rd Oct. had a fun time there with my group members and the ji ko pa grp. it was really funny. First time played multi-player ji ko pa and it was hilarious. kept laughing and laughing and laughing. saw the other side of MEYI in this camp. HAHS! oh well. enjoyable! picture speaks a thousand words~

the ti ko pa grp. missing a few members. hahs.


Meyi

Yvette

Di Sheng

Aishan

YiLin

Latifa
and together this forms GO GREEN! with our 2 GLS Sean and Sherrie. (:

6 Oct is a day for me to remember. hahs. a lesson learnt for us. somehow it's also a good thing that everything is revealed. perhaps a little relieved. i know i'm wrong, i know my mistake already. trust me. i've learnt. i made a promise and i will keep that promise. not only i but we. trust us. it will not happen again.

thank you for always standing by me, never giving up on me. you gave me the strength to carry on this journey. thank you.
i love you.

Yesterday was passing out parade. So i'm now an officer. hahs. well, i dont think it's easy being an officer though. Jiayou ba! lol. hmm. yesterday i felt so proud of myself. lol. i believe everyone do. hahs. took quite some photos but photos are mainly use other's cameras or phone take de. hahs. Congrats to everyone! i shall post photos soon. prolly after attachment will have more time. (: it's time to go do my assignments, make it neater and organised, mentor is going to childcare tmr. hahs. i shall relax a little, then i wont feel so stressed. hahs. (: tata.

i am starting to miss those days, those times. hahs.

iloveyou.

so many things have happened in the past few days, attachment started and many many other things. hahs. but as kinda busy and dont really have time to post pics etc. attachments are tiring. hahs. didnt expect it to be that tough at times, but it's really a pleasure to see children greeting you and giving you their drawings etc. well, it's sweet la. hahs. and i enjoy it. (:

next time then post pictures that i had taken at marina barrage all these. hahs. yups. i passed otc!!!! lol. goodnight ppl. gonna go to grandma house and stay over.

iloveyou. <3

Friends for life. Will there be such thing? hahs. sometimes i feel that such things dont have to be emphasized on. it's like the more someone say and emphasize on it, the more fake i find it. hahs. weird huh. yes. it's really weird. Promises. it seems that sometimes promises are meant to be broken. right? tsk tsk. what's wrong? now i understand the feeling of coming into your life and then walking out of it. only when feeling lonely then will think of contacting someone. it seems that i have quite a lot of things to say. but now i dont know where to start. it's getting weirder and weirder, slowly slowly drifting apart and soon lost and gone. tada. that's when u truly walk out of someone's life. no more connection. hahs. i dont even understand what am i talking here, do you? CRAP.
perhaps, perhaps, i should learn to feel happy when i'm alone. what's so bad about being alone right. being alone will make me think about things. yeah. sometimes it's good to spend time alone.


iloveyou. <3

Happy 17th Birthday YS!

Early morning woke up and met zhiwei, warren, yuliang, justin, glenn at buangkok mrt. hohoho. to proceed on our surprise for ys. (: lol. so we walked to his house and i collaborated with his brother so he also woke up early to open door for us. (thanks!) hahs. hehes. so reached his place at ard 7.15am. lol. and we discussed and prepared the cake. zw bought the party thing that can make such a LOUD noise when u blow. hahs. so they each took one and i was holding on the cake and preparing to light the candle. so they went into his room and 1 2 3 BLOWWWWWW~ my god. that was really loud and ys got the shock of his life. hahs. he got a shock and woke up and they started singing "Happy Birthday", so i went in with the cake. lol. (: hahs. so sad luh. didnt managed to take photo or video of how he got shocked and woke up T.T but nvm it was a pleasant surprise. and it's really damn hilarious, everything. hahas. (: yeah. so they gave him presents and stuff. hahs. think he should be quite happy lah. hahs. he totally didnt expect it. lol. sweet. it's been super long since i last saw zw they all. hahs. actually he is always very guai lan la but okay la quite nice of them to include me today. hahs. (: yeah. so wanted to have breakfast together, but zw they all going for soccer, so end up only warren, ys and i went for breakfast. and i brought along PEE to study lah. -.- cos pei-ed them go gym and i studied at mac. lol.

met mama in the afternoon cos she was ard rivervale perming hair. hahas. so she came to compasspoint to meet ys and i and we had lunched and dessert together. hahs. and we went cold storage to buy groceries together. hahs. sweet. (: lol. and ys get to carry all the basket filled with stuff. hehes. and aft tat mama drove ys to hougang to cut his hair and home sweet home for us.

afterall, it's really a pleasant surprise for him, and seeing him happy, makes my day! hahs. (:

may all your wishes come true! iloveyou! <3

EXAMS!

All the theories are making me crazy. Ugh. Oh Well.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

STUDY. STUDY.STUDY.

Jia you! hahs.

Sweet memories.

yesterday went dinner with june. (: hahs. met her after she work and went to eat pizza. lol. talked about many many stuff. yeah. it was a great day. lol. well i dont feel like blogging so much lately, getting lazy. but well i feel like posting pictures which i found on my comp. those pics were long long time ago. my secondary sch days and beautiful memories. hahs. enjoy! (:

sec 3 i went to chiang mai for cip + exchange program with zx and this lovely grp of ppl

my fantastic class - 2e3'06 (: hahs.

wei ling's 16th birthday. hahs. (:

sjab year 4s. with a few missing ppl. lol.

sjab nursings. <3

FAC nursing team 2007

sjab year 4s + leroy + mr gavin lee. (:

sjab. firedrill practice. hahs.

sec3 exchange program at shenyang. their cable car is so scary. wl and i are practically laughing from the top of the mountain all the way to ground so that we will not feel so scared. hahas. (:

jiwei. me. wei ling.

zixin and i at the airport. (:

shu fen and i. hahs.

my bunk mates in shenyang. (:

kite flying. (:

Love. Love. Love. <3

well. people may walk in and out of your life, but the memories will forever stay. (:

"Friends are the most important part of your life. Treasure the tears, treasure the laughter, but most importantly, treasure the memories."

Dave Brenner

i hereby wanna thank all my friends who once walked into my life, some may have proceeded on and some are still here by my side. but i will always treasure those beautiful moments that we had spent together. (: love all of you.

iloveyoutoo. <3

went out with ys today. (: hehes. watched harry potter and the half-blood prince. i love the show. and i was so so sad that i cried when dumbledore died. especially when harry potter told snape that 'he trusted you'. i just felt so sad. lol. cos like can relate to real life like sometimes when you really trusted someone, one day you realised that it was all fake. one day they just disappoint you, that feeling. really sucks. terrible. hahs. yah. so aft movie went to eat japanese meal. hmm. the food is quite nice. hahs. yups. so aft that nothing much alr. yeah. kinda bored. getting tired recently, exams are coming soon. gotta prepare and stuff. jiayou ba. (: goodnight ppl. yeah.

many things are happening. the world aint all sunshine and rainbows. (: believe in yourself.

iloveyou.

nothing much today. was feeling bored so decided to blog a little. but there's nothing much to blog about. lol. i shall blog about MANGO. since jo wants me to do so huh. MANGO actually lied to me that they had outing that day. but the truth is, they didnt even had an outing. oh so sad right. omg. this is so crap la. idk what am i talking here.

we do not have to be bothered by what people say or comment about us yah. (: just be yourself. some people just tend to think toooooooooooo much. disgusting. yikes. hahs.

boring. sigh. i shall go sleep. goodnight.

imissyou and iloveyou <3

Last day of OTC

Today was the last day of OTC. well, after 4 days 3 nights camp and after 3 theory course day. i've learnt quite a lot of stuff. yes. i did. some things that i've learnt are probably kinda difficult to describe but i just know it's there as i can feel it. feel the change, feel the impact. lol. apart from learning new values and getting to know and understand my beliefs, i made new friends. some of them are kinda nice ppl that will give you advices and help you along the way. i was glad that i went for otc and meeting new ppl and get to un-learn and re-learn stuff. hahas. i would like to thank those who helped me along the way. Tango was such a lovable group. i still remember during camp days, our performance, i would say is the most special one - only group that had no music for dance. hahas. was worried before the performance that we would screw up, but well~ we did a great job with those remix there. lol. (: I would like to thank each and everyone in Tango, it's because of you all that made me perservered and strive on. those encouragements that you all had given me and those push and pull that cheered me on. (: hahs. and special thanks to our 2 beloved group mentors - sir qing jun and mdm pei jun. never losing faith in anyone of us and always encouraging us and giving us advices and guiding us through the course. thanks loads! (: i believe this journey never ends, and it's just the start for us. so everyone let's strive on for whatever we do, not just in sj but in everything we do!

Lead with Honour.

so had exam today, it was quite alright. (: samuel was not feeling well and he had high fever. so he went home first. Take care! Get well soon! hahas. Don't worry okays, you will be alright one. (:

tmr is presentation for PROP!! omg. single parent. lol. well~ may everything go well. jia you! hahahs. shall go do the script. Goodnight!

iloveyou. <3

i wanna be there for you and i will try my best to.
no matter what happens, i will always believe in you.
holding you up, even if everyone puts you down. alright.
so you got to believe in yourself too.
don't let those words get you down.
okays, i believe you can boy. jia you!
i will always be there for you. love~

STRESS!

Argh. STRESS is the only word that is in my mind now. i am like so worried about the poster lah. gar. tmr need study for sj theory exam and at night have something on and i can also do some poster and sunday committed to OTC. and monday having PROP. then tues submission of poster. god. there is like not enough time. i am worrying worrying worrying. shit it. sometimes i am like angry with myself la. dumb. i have learnt not to procrastinate. i have learnt to spend my time wisely. i have learnt about time management. yes yes yes. i have learnt. argh. i shall go and continue now. just so frustrated that i have to rant rant rant. sigh. what's the point of complaining now, doesnt solve anythin friggin thing. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. screams*
okays. better? lol. start work!

I CAN DO IT! JIA YOU!

sometimes you just really need that push, and more of self-motivation.
cos there won't always be someone there for you.
sometimes, you really need to just be there for yourself.

thankyouforyourhelpandadvices. iloveyou. <3

I am a happy girl today cos i did 2 good deeds. (: 1) this morning on the bus michele and i gave up 2 seats to an old couple. and they thanked us and smiled. (: 2) when going home i alighted from the bus and saw a blind lady also alighting so helped her and walked her to her block then walk home. She was kinda young and she was grateful and thanked me, praising me and said 'may God bless you~' sweet. hahs. yup so was a HAPPY girl today. yups. okays. gotta sleep and talk to my darl~ lol.


Project worksssssss- argh! Just one word - STRESS! lol

goodnight. hahas.

loves~ <3

i am in school library doing project. but i am feeling so bored! gar. sigh. well well. i am recovering but still having flu and cough. sigh sigh. So i didnt go OTC on sunday cos was still having fever, but thanks uh for ppl who sent me notes and the exam tips. (: (Hi im Michele, thanks for the well wishes ^^V) this is M cutting in when i type halfway. lol

anyway, yesterday went piano lesson and when i bus-ed home i was kinda happy. just because of a smile. hahs. i smiled at the bus driver when boarding cos he smiled at me. hahs. so i alighted at my house bus stop and when i looked back the bus driver waved and say bye to me. felt so happy at this small act of his. i dont know why, but it made me happy and glad. i think sometimes in life, there are many small little things that can actually make our day. it depends on how you look at it, how you view it. yups/ (: hahas.

*michele is leaning on me now and joey peeping over my shoulders and like a monkey yakking away. (Tan. M, 2009) omg. this is so APA. lol. okays. tata for now. (:
bye people!!

M.Y.J

iloveyou. <3

I AM SICK!

well, i am sick. sigh. didnt go to school today, and was given 3 days mc, so if i have not recovered on Sunday, not going OTC. I am down with fever, cough, flu. my temperature is like so high now 38.9 degrees celsius. i dont like having fever, it make my head hurts like hell. argh. irritating. yah. no appetite as well, dont feel like eating anything, but i got to cos of the medicine. so mum cooked porridge - plain white porridge. no choice but to eat a little. and parents went for some performance at esplanade and i cant go!! saddd. well. hope i'll get well soon like seriously, dont wanna go ttsh.

Michele get well soon!

imissyou. iwantyoubymyside. i love you. <3

West Coast Park

First of all,
Happy 17th Birthday Michele!!!
hahas. hope you enjoyed today with US! (:

Today's post shall have pictures to brighten up my wordy and down down blog. hahs. (: went west coast park today with ms tan hui min and T01 and T02 i think. so reached there and split into groups, so walked around with michele, joey and mcking. took super loads of photos. hahas. Pictures speak a thousand words.

i like this long long thing.

michele and joey

spider web is so fun.

this "tunnel" is so nice lah. though we are so dark but still nice. (:

me. (:

M for Michele. (: hahas. and after taking this photo my poor slippers broke.

michele is like a happy child. hahas. (:

i am higher than joey.

michele is like the highest, and we talked like that. hahas

twist. and michele asked me who is the 'blob' behind, without knowing it's herself. -.- hahs.

joey the wax figure with me.


mcking on this thing which is damn fun. (:

joey's turn.

my turn.

michele's turn.
all of us had so much fun playing this over and over again.

and the best. michele fell and she's lying on the sand. hahs. we laughed like hell. she cant get down so jumped and fell. hahs. but nice position (:

this is only like part of it. still have second half of the day, but i think it'll take damn long. shall do it next time. (: michele's birthday celebration will be up soon as well. hahs. good night.

i love you. <3

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i was in malaysia that day. i felt so bad that i wanna blog but i cant get internet, so i typed it in my phone which is 6 pages long. hahs.

Life is unpredictable. Last friday she was still talking to me, and now she passed away due to heart attack. It's really shocking. Although she is just a nanny who took care of my newborn niece, but she is very friendly and always talked to me and shared her experiences of looking after infants, and she is now no longer around. it's just kind of shocking when i heard the news. i think life is like that, you really dont know what is going to happen the next day. We should live life to the fullest, like there is no tomorrow. lol. Cherish every single one around us. Let them know that they are important in our lives. Life is like that. From birth to death, it is a cycle that just repeats itself.
I also believe that if you treat someone badly, next time someone will do the same to you too. I miss my Granny all of a sudden, although she had already passed away for 4 years. Used to go back to malaysia often to visit her. Now she's no longer there, sometimes when i saw her stuff, it will just remind me of her. Granny is a nice lady, she taught me a lot of nice phrases about life which are very meaningful. (: i think i hate to have someone close to me leaving me, but i know this is life. It's like that, when it's time, you'll die. It's part and parcel of life. Yes, i got it.

i was feeling down that night, hahs. but after thinking and thinking and thinking, i was fine. lol. i think i start to think a lot as i grow older, hahs.

YESTERDAY

went OTC, hahs. it's the same, lessons - lunch - lessons - home. hahas. was tired yesterday, during lectures i am struggling to be awake, and samuel was not feeling well so didnt go = no one to entertain me. hahs. (: but after lunch wei qi sat beside alr so we talked and planned TANGO Outing!! hahas. yay! so next sunday no OTC so we will be having TANGO Outing at East Coast Park. hahs. wet weather program is to go Samuel's House. hahs. Think everyone might go, hopefully everyone goes including sir qj and mdm pj. (:
the fun thing about yesterday is that it started raining after training so charmaine, george and i were like running from HQ to mrt. charmaine and i ran and laughed at the same time, so we got damn tired and started walking in the heavy rain. hahs. looks dumb, i know. but it had been so so long since i last run and walked in such heavy rain. of course i am drenched. hahs. but thanks to the 2 guys from otc that we met halfway, they sheltered us to the mrt station. hahas. (: well. that's abt it. hahs. going to leave house soon. meeting ys for lunch and he'll send me to np. grins. (:

oh and today is youth day. Happy Youth Day! but sad, i still have school. oh well~

6 more days to go... i love you <3

sometimes i will feel lonely, sometimes i will feel neglected, sometimes i will feel that i do not belong, sometimes sometimes... it's just like that...

tata.

omg. i wanted to blog about malaysia. but it seems that i have no time. and seriously, i am feeling stress. omg. though i know it's my fault for doing work so late. sigh sigh. i really need to change this. procrastinating is damn bad and i think it kills. argh. nvm. i will get back to do work now. cos tmr i have otc course so no time to do. no choice, blog some other time. take care people. bye

stress stress stress stress stress stress stress.. zzz. sigh.
iloveyou. <3

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hahas. went to watch movie today with ys. Monster VS.Aliens in 3D. Coooooooooooooooool!! 3D is kind of cool. lol. every time some things will like suddenly pop out in front of me. and i just feel like grabbing it. and sometimes it will suddenly shock both of us. hahs. so funny. laughed a lot in the cinema. and we are surrounded by kids, so i feel like a kid too. hahs. so after watching movie we went to habourfront centre and ate at Ramenten. yup. ate the spicy ramen and i started sniffing away. lol. but it's not bad la. (: we went toys 'r' us. hahas. spent so much time inside la. playing with the toys and looking here looking there. haha. so many kids went with their parents. lol. and i felt so dumb in there doing all the stupid things but it's fun. (: hahas. Some photos to share.

us.

twist.

bird face la. look so guai lan. hahas.

so at toys 'r' us i saw new mickey and minnie stuff so i started to spend money turning capsules. hahas. and these are what i got.

2 blue ones, 2 circle ones, and 1 yellow one. so ys took 2 and i took 3. lol.

i like this water colour effect. lol.

dumb dumb.

what's with tat face la. lol. (:

i like this effect. haha. (:

hmm. that's all for now. gonna go sleep soon. tmr need to help out for singma competition. hahs. take care people. (:

so sweet of you today uh. (: i love you. <3